Two years ago, I lost 90 odd pounds. Whole new body, face, wardrobe. It was great, for the first time in my entire life I felt good about my body for the first time in my life. I maintained for six months - even lost 5-6 more pounds maintaining. But my life outside of weight fell to pieces around me. Not due to weight loss, that seemed to be the one thing that remained constant. I was randomly attacked one day and for some reason, it brought up a lot of things from my upbringing - I was soon diagnosed with CPTSD, Anxiety, and Depression. I lost my career, most of my friends, couldn’t go out. Was put on medication that made me eat and eat and eat. I just couldn’t stop. I put back on 30 pounds in just a couple of months. I have realised that part of my CPTSD is an addiction to food. Food was a big reward/punishment thing growing up and was both stigmatised and shoved in my mouth at every opportunity. I use it now to punish myself and I get one sniff of food when I am feeling nervous or low and I am out of control, eating. I don’t really know why I am sharing this, other than to just put it out there. I need to go cold-turkey on some of those trigger foods for a while. It was how I lost my first 60 pounds (and with the weight I lost the habit of eating just because). Want to throw out positive vibes to everyone struggling with their eating.
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