So, my current and stating weight is 235lbs for a 5'8 female, aged 36.
I am setting my goal weights in stage so first goal is 200lbs.
I have never been a fitness fanatic. In fact, I hate being breathless, red and sweaty with my heartbeat pounding in my ears. But, I've reached the stage where I hate mirrors more.
I have always, always had a curvy, natural frame since puberty. For example, I was a 34CC bra size at 16, and at around 21 they finally matured and stopped at a 36DD. I have a naturally small waist and wide hips. Being less than 12 stone looks unhealthy thin on me. According to most health apps and BMI calculators I should be between 8-11 stone. I haven't been 8 stone since I was 12 lol
Alas, after kids and a marriage and a very sedentary lifestyle, plus a terrible diet for the last 15 years, I've lost the 'curvy' and sit firmly in obese. Even if I don't look it.
I have had weight loss success in the past with slimming world losing 35lbs in 3 months, but for some reason, after hitting 30, my metabolism has taken a complete nose dive and 2 rounds of slimming world have failed. The whole 'eat as much carbs as you like' isn't entirely accurate when you're not cooperating exercise.
I also tried Atkins/keto twice but after testing a month in with no results, I am one of the 5% whose body doesn't go into ketosis, plus living on high fat dairy and meat just felt so unhealthy (even though I know it's based on healthy fats). I'm not knocking the latter two diets, as whatever works for you is great. They just don't work for me.
I finished uni at 32 and started working in an office and that's when my 35lb weight loss was regained, plus more. Constant snacks, orders in, driving to work, driving home, sitting on the couch, going to bed. Rinse and repeat for 3 years. Convenience food was a huge must, since I was up at 6.30am and back home at 6.30pm, with 2 kids, pets and a house to see to. I couldn't be bothered with the time consuming slimming world cooking.
Then lockdown hit, I was put on unpaid leave due to lack of childcare. The week before lockdown, I moved into a house which has full length mirrors screwed into the wall at the top of the stairs. There is a particularly massive one in the kitchen next to the dining table, again, screwed into the wall, that I cannot avoid.
I carried on eating garbage because, on unpaid leave, it was all I could afford.
Then I got made redundant. I looked at my life and how miserable my weight makes me and decided this was the best opportunity I was going to get to do something about it. I'm taking 6 months off working, and only going back part time when I return.
So, that's what brings me here. I have a step counter with a current daily target of 8k a day. I've hit and exceeded that target every day bar one for the last week, mainly through gardening or just vigorously marching on the spot for 20 minutes, and I have a calorie tracker. My calorie intake a day is 1400, but thanks to the step counter and the calorie tracker I am getting a deficit of about 800 a day.
As for cost and food, I have eggs, spinach, brown bread instead of white, white meats and fish, lean red meats, green veggies and fruit. I'm weighing pastas and rice, and I've swapped premade jarred sauces for homemade from scratch, so the kids are eating the same as me. I'm not faffing about making multiple different meals a day, but most importantly, all the free time has made convenience food redundant.
The only 'cheat' I have once per day is my Costa latte Tassimo pods with one sugar in the morning - I will not give this up lol I don't drink and I don't smoke, so it's my only life line to survive the day lol The rest of the day I drink water only.
I always get off to a good start at diets, but as time goes in (usually after the 4-6 weeks mark when I'm noticing no change...I know, it usually around the 8 week mark when loss becomes visible) the more patience and motivation I lose, so I'm hoping to find some support and friends in here to keep me going.
I really, really, really want it this time. I hate the way I look, but more worryingly is my non-existent fitness level. I am breathless from everything, and a few years of anxiety during uni has left me with on/off attacks of ectopic heartbeats. I dont need any extra stress on my heart from being fat.
My GP said to me a few months ago, that losing weight is extremely hard work and my current lifestyle makes it near impossible. I hear the word 'impossible' when my excersize is getting intense or I am craving a massive packet of chips/cookies, and it's getting me through.
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