Pretty sure I got the cocktail of self destruction thrown my way during the summer of 2019. I've always had the eating disorder (BED) but it was semi manageable prior to the loss of my favorite human in June 2019.
I've been wallowing in self pity and grief since. Closing myself off from friends and family and eating myself into a 100 lb weight gain. I don't want to be this person anymore, my fav human would be so disappointed in me if he saw me like this now. If he knew how much I had let myself fall into despair over his death. He never wanted anything but the very best for everyone around him and I know he'd be bending over backwards right now to pull me out of this slump and help me find the joy in life again.
I've finally reached out to therapy provided through work and begun the healing process mentally last week. It feels good to say this all out loud. I wanted to post here as I can't quite bring myself to talk to my friends or family regarding everything as of yet but hoped you fine internet strangers would be the next best thing to an anonymous support group as I can get until I can find a local group to join.
If anyone has any discord/online groups open to members for BED or weight loss accountability etc I would love to have an invite. Lurking this sub has helped me so much and I'd love to find an online community of similarly struggling individuals to reach out to in times of need and stumbles.
It's time to say goodbye to this sad chapter and do better. Make a change. Be better.
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