Hey guys! It's me again. One year ago, I started my weight loss journey, and I was pretty down in the dumps.
So here I am: fat, sad and with no trust in my own capabilities. I know I will probably fail again. But my body is aching, my clothes don't fit anymore and when I see myself in the mirror my brain is telling me: "this is not me, this is not what I look like". I want out.
But guess what? I didn't fail! I made a huge effort that following fall and winter, I got my SO on board, and I lost over 10 kgs. I made it my routine to plan my meals, count my calories, take two walks every day and log everything. I even played Ring Fit Adventure, an excercise game on my Switch, which resulted in my energy levels drastically improving. And of course, I've been lurking a lot in here.
I didn't stress out about the fluctuation of my weight curve - I knew that my hormones were pulling tricks on me and that cheat days were not devastating in the long run. My clothes started to fit again and my family were super supportive once I gave them the green light to talk about my body. I felt great and it was easy!
However, after Christmas 2020, I needed a break from it all. I hated looking at food and only seeing numbers and the potential for gaining or losing weight. So I stopped. It was a conscious choice and it was one I felt good about. I was 10 kgs lighter, I was happier and I was stronger. So I rewarded myself with giving back the joy of experimenting in the kitchen, baking delicious bread, and making exciting drink recipes. I knew that some of those kilos were inevitably going to come back, but I didn't mind. I remembered how easy losing them had been, and I knew I could get back on the train whenever I felt ready.
Now is that time. I gained back half of what I lost since Christmas 2020, but if I can repeat the same thing I did last year, I will have lost 15 kgs by the end of this year, which will still be progress from where I started.
And now that I'm here, I've realized that I never failed once on this journey. I took care of my body but also allowed myself to love life. Not once did I beat myself up whenever I cheated or lost control, instead I decided to do better the next day. I have learned so much over this past year about taking it easy and letting change take time, something I wish I knew when I was younger and really struggled to lose weight. This is a marathon that I will be in for life. But coming to this state of mind has been a very, very long journey, and it did take a couple of therapy sessions, too.
So to whoever is reading and made it to the end, here is the one thing I can share with you: take it easy, and do it in your own pace. You can get back in the game again whenever you're ready. You can always, always start again.
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