Hello! This is my first post on any weight loss forum because to be frank I am mortified. I am 18 years old and i've been obese since I hit puberty. I am 133kg, around 6'6. I had quite traumatic teenage years and due to this I have just become addicted to food. My dads relationship to food was toxic and I think I formed those habits too. I am severely depressed, I tried to kill myself in 2018, lost most of my friends who I thought were for life, my whole family was homeless, and then our other house flooded, just a whole bunch of shit on top of shit. I've noticed that have these manic states like i'm in now, where I wanna lose weight and do all this stuff to better myself, and then depression just throws me into the deep end and suddenly it's been a month and I've eaten nothing but shit and I wanna die and never get out of bed again.
I am in physical pain a LOT, and the reason i've shied away from any doctors is because I find it hard to be honest at all, I lie so I can leave because i'm so ashamed and disgusted in myself for looking like this. I feel like I missed out on a lot of experiences, instead of dwelling I really really really want to make a change. Exercise hurts a lot, my body is always in pain, I guess I wanna know some little things to start out with, tips for people that pulled themselves out of the pit. I'm drinking a lot more water, but i've given up so many times, and i'm scared that i'll die if I keep continuing on, or take my own life if I don't do something. Seriously, any help is appreciated!
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