Hi everyone, I’m 23F 5’3” and 229lbs. I’ve struggled with weight my whole life and now I’m the biggest I’ve ever been. I feel like over the past 1.5 - 2 years, my self esteem has decreased drastically. I genuinely hate the way I look. I’m in a relationship and often think and tell my partner that he’d probably be happier with someone skinnier. And you realize that as a fat person, you can’t do a lot of “cute couple things” like wearing your SOs shirts and sweatshirts. Even in our sexlife, I feel so uncomfortable being naked and when he wants me to be on top I’m absolutely mortified. I hate that I feel so insecure and let it affect my love life with such an incredible man :(
I worked out today and gosh I thought these things released endorphins?!? I found myself crying and having a full blown mental breakdown. Typing thru tears right now. How did I let it get this bad.. I hate myself for letting it get to this point. A part of me is scared that even if I lost weight, I still might be unhappy.
How do you accept yourself as you are, regardless of where you are in your weight loss journey? Anything and everything would help please.
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