As some of you might have noticed I am a fairly active member of this group. I thoroughly appreciate this group and many of its members. The support here is phenomenal and I’m glad to have joined it. Many have asked how I have lost my weight. (280 lbs - 133 lbs = 146 lbs lost). Never did I lie, but I also never gave the whole truth. And here it is:
“I am on a journey to finding peace from within:
-Today I start with my weight loss. Here’s my secret, I have had bariatric surgery (namely the Gastric Sleeve). I do not owe this to any of you, but have often felt like a fraud. For many of you, you might think I may have taken the easy way out. That, my friends, is the farthest from the truth.
I have, in fact, changed my eating habits in their entirety. I do eat mostly low carb/sugar. I drink little to no sugary drinks. I do exercise, but probably not as much as I should. My portions are controlled, forcibly and now by my own accord.
My surgery limits my food in take. My entire relationship with my favorite thing in the world had changed. I couldn’t binge eat. I couldn’t stuff myself to that “warm, safe hug” feeling. I couldn’t drink with my friends despite being 21 for only 6 months. Social events became awkward because I could no longer celebrate in the food. It was hard. Very hard. I felt I had lost my best friend. I didn’t know how to cook anymore, something many know is one of my biggest hobbies.
People changed. They judged me for my decision and to this day, it still hurts. I suffered my entire life being morbidly obese, and I feel I deserve nothing less than to live a healthy life, even if it meant getting a surgery to use as a tool to navigate an already tricky journey.
It was my first major surgery. The recovery was scary for me. Making the decision to go under the knife was terrifying for me, but I’d never take that decision back.
For those of you who might feel deceived, resentful, or bitter about my weight loss please hear this:
I am not you and this not your body.
I made a decision that saved my life, literally and figuratively.
My life IS different. I am CONSTANTLY thinking about food and what is going into my body and how it can be used as fuel.
It is a daily battle to fight my mental illnesses that tell me I don’t deserve this new life.
I cannot eat like a normal person, and some days that can be exceptionally hard. I do miss being able to thoroughly enjoy a good meal for more than 5 minutes.
This surgery allowed me to be insightful and look within. I would have never accepted my food addiction without it. I would’ve never noticed the generational habits of poor eating. I don’t think I could have ever broken the cycle without this tool.
I have had weight loss surgery and I will not apologize for it. It has saved my life in more ways than one.
If you feel anything other than joy for me and my accomplishments, if you find yourself feeling bitter toward me for my success, please, for the love of god remove me from your life, and I will happily wave goodbye.
It is relieving to finally admit this. I deserve to feel proud because I know that this journey has not been easy in the slightest. You may not ever understand that, and that’s okay, because we aren’t talking about you, are we?
If you can’t be happy for a friend choosing to better themselves and the quality of their life, then you are not their friend.
I am proud of myself and I am finally healthy, and that’s all I’ve ever wanted.”
I posted this on a more personal platform as well. It feels so liberating, and if there are any of you out there feeling these same things in regards to bariatric surgery, please know you are not alone, your efforts are valid and valiant to say the least. Do not let anyone take away from celebrating in your health and happiness, I did for two years, and I’m so glad to finally have this off of my chest.
Happy losing, we’re all in this race together and in the end, we will all be winners.
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