Earlier this year, I weighed myself and realised for the first time in my life (despite always being at the higher end of the normal BMI category) I had crossed over into the overweight category. This wasn't in and of itself a huge issue, but I was feeling uncomfortable in my body, out of breath climbing up stairs, and I knew the gain was due to very unhealthy (semi-binging) habits at university due to immense stress.
I've been in a calculated calorie deficit since the start of June, and my BMI is comfortably in the the "normal" range (22.4). My aim is to just lose 3kg more (BMI of about 21.5) and then tone up a little.
My weight loss has been subtly noticeable, mainly because I was in an uncomfortable state before. I'm currently living with a friend I spoke to early in my journey (but haven't discussed the weight loss with since).
Today, whilst having a break from studying, I went to the bathroom. I've always been the kind of person who takes a little too long in the bathroom, on Reddit, Tiktok, Kindle, Instagram etc... I also have chronic rhinitis and a lot of phlegm (TMI, sorry!) that I cough up twice a day or so. Quiet coughs though.
I came out of the bathroom, and my friend stared me down and said "why did you cough?!". I thought she was suggesting I might have covid (I don't). I said what? And then she said intently "were you purging?!"
I was completely thrown. I have never purged (I physically can't make myself vomit) and my phlegm coughs sound nothing like it. I listed my two reasons (phlegm + procrastination) and then didn't add any more.
I just feel really upset and quite thrown. The 'accusation' came out of nowhere. I get that it was probably coming from a place of concern, but we have a slightly complicated friendship and it felt more inflammatory than that.
This is just a little rant I guess. Does anyone have any advice? Should I bring it up or not mention it again?
I'd also like to add that my eating habits have gotten significantly less disordered since CICO. I used to binge on a semi regular basis, I have not at all since starting. I feel so much happier and more confident.
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