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28F, previously fit but struggled with mental health for years, which led to unhealthy habits and ~100 lb weight gain. I am finally feeling much better mentally and feel ready to focus on my health consistently. I’m considering documenting my weight loss journey on TikTok/Instagram for accountability and to help others, but I do not want having unflattering face photos/videos permanently online. I’m open to faceless or partially faceless content and full face reveal after getting to my goal weight. Looking for input on whether people follow weight loss creators, what content they enjoy or dislike, whether real-time journeys or “already lost it” creators are more appealing, and whether seeing the creator’s face actually matters.
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I’m 28F. For most of my life, I was fairly fit and healthy, and had pretty healthy habits but I struggled a lot with my body image due to harsh beauty standards and severe bullying throughout my childhood and adolescence. At my smallest as young adult, I was around 120 lbs at 5’3”, and still genuinely believed I was fat.
I had several pretty rough years struggling with my mental health severely and I coped in unhealthy ways and developed a severe food addiction with bingeing, which eventually led to me gaining around 100 lbs. I’ve been sitting at roughly 220 lbs for a few years now and at this point, I am just so over it. Over the past year, I’ve been seriously working on my mental health and have healed quite a bit and am in a much better place now with the healthiest mindset I've had in probably over a decade, if not the healthiest ever. For the first time in a long time, I don’t feel like I’m constantly in survival mode and I finally feel like I have the emotional capacity to take care of my health and body consistently, instead of swinging between extremes, like I always used to.
Because of that, I’ve been toying with the idea of starting a TikTok and/or Instagram account to document my journey (meals, routines, fitness, things that work for me, things that don’t, and just the overall process + possibly some other glow up stuff like figuring out beauty/makeup etc.). I feel like it could help keep me accountable even on “off” days, and maybe also help other people who are on the other side of something similar feel less alone and see that there’s always a way forward.
That said, I still struggle with insecurities/concerns from my past, and there are a few things that really hold me back:
- I come from a small hometown in a country with extremely strict beauty standards for women (to clarify - I no longer live there and live in the US and personally do not adhere to these "rules" nor find them healthy), and no one back home has seen me in several years. But I really don’t want people there to see my content, become the talk of the town, or judge how much weight I’ve gained. I especially don’t want my parents or family to have to hear comments like “what happened to her?” or “how did she let herself go?”.
- If the account were to gain traction and I decided to keep it long-term (even after reaching my goal weight, posting fitness, cooking, beauty, or general “glow up” content), I honestly don’t want unflattering photos or videos of my face permanently floating around online. I can handle people seeing my body pre-weight loss, but showing my face feels extremely vulnerable to me. With extra weight, my face looks very awkward and honestly just not like me, and I don’t want those images to exist forever for public consumption or potentially be used against me to make fun of me or anything of the sort.
I’m much more open to revealing my face after losing the weight, but I’d really prefer not to do so beforehand. I could maybe be okay (if truly needed or preferred by the audience) with showing my face in selfies/"talking head" videos, where I'd have more control over angles and lighting, but not in full-body shots, before videos, or casual clips - and even then, that's a big if. I’ve thought about covering my face with a sticker, wearing a mask, or something similar. My goal isn’t necessarily to be anonymous as I’m okay with people online knowing who I am, I just don’t want bad photos or videos of my face following me forever if I decide to move on from the account one day.
All of this brings me to a few questions, and I’d really appreciate honest input:
- Do you follow (or would you follow) weight loss creators?
- What kind of content do you enjoy seeing from them? And on the flip side, what do you dislike?
- Are you more likely to follow someone who is going through weight loss and figuring things out in real time, or someone who already lost the weight and is explaining exactly what they did, what worked, and what didn’t?
- Do you care about seeing the creator’s face, or are you just as likely to watch and engage with faceless content (such as making meals, POV grocery shopping/fitness, walks etc.?
Thanks so much if you read all of this. I really appreciate any perspectives or experiences you’re willing to share.
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