I've shared the photos before. I've shared the stats. I've written about calories and consistency.
This isn't that post.
This is the stuff I kept to myself. The years before I stepped on a scale and faced the truth. What happened after the weight came off that nearly broke me.
I'm writing this because I've spent nine years watching people start the same journey and make the same mistakes. Not because they're stupid. Because nobody told them the full story.
So here's mine.
I was always the big kid. Bigger than my friends, noticeably bigger. My parents said I'd grow out of it. Every year I went up a pants size. Every year I believed them.
By 12 I was 12 stone. By 13 I was 13 stone. You can do the maths.
I ate when I was hungry, bored, and stressed. Most of the time I didn't know which.
One summer my Dad said it. Whole family there. "You wear hoodies even in the summer."
I shrugged it off. "I'm cold blooded."
I wasn't. I just didn't want anyone to see what was underneath.
That comment lit a fire for about a week. Then it burned out. New diet every few months. Rocky on Sunday night, lying in bed planning the week ahead, convinced this time was different. Unstoppable Monday morning, meal prep done, gym shoes by the door. Back in the hoodie by Friday, the biscuit packet empty on the kitchen counter, the plan already forgotten.
By 17 I was 20 stone. The diets weren't working. I stopped believing it was possible.
2015 everything changed.
I'd dropped out of college. Law. No confidence. Working minimum wage. That was it for me.
Then my brother died. He took his own life. I found him.
I won't go into it here. But when the dust settled I was at my heaviest, unemployed, heading down the same path. There was a night where my friend found me in a bad way. That was the bottom.
Something shifted after that. Not dramatically. Just quietly. Nobody's coming to fix this. It has to be me.
It was a Friday.
I didn't wait until Monday.
That Friday was nine years ago. What happened next is the full story. The weight loss. The eating disorder. The system I built that made it stick.
If any of this sounds familiar, the cycles, the hoodie, the rock bottom, you're in the right place, this community helped me understand the basics and from there use these to help me on my journey!
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