This isn't meant to be a pity post, but I need to get this off my chest.nFor context, I'm 19M 5'10 and 300 pounds. I'll be turning 20 next month and that realization has made me want to try even harder to lose weight, something I struggled with since Covid. My freshman year of high-school I was at my heaviest and most chubby as far as body composition, but at one point I was down to around 250 pounds. I did lose weight. The fact that I've lost it before should make me feel great and give me motivation to do it again, but if anything I'm dreading it. I have no clue how I had done it, the only difference I can think of is I started getting some walks in throughout my day. I eventually stopped and I guess my weight came back over the course of 2 or 3 years. I didn’t know I was actually this heavy until about a week ago. Just last year around this time I was 285, so I knew I had gained, but it still really snuck up on me. What I don't get is that I weigh more than I did at my largest size and somehow aren't as big. I can tell that just by how my face looks. But I'm heavy nonetheless and my goal now is to just get back to where I was, I have 40 pounds to lose. I know it's my fault and I have nobody else to blame, but this sucks, you know? I'm not the person I want to be at all and I know I can be better, but I don't know if I have the strength. The realization that I could be down to 200 at this point if I'd realized and been consistent really eats at me. I'd have a better life by now and feel better about myself, but I actually tipped the scale in the complete opposite direction and don't really know how to even the odds.
I get the basics, calories in< calories out and I've been trying to stick to that since December and have had no meaningful changes as far as I know. I think my jackets and stuff fit looser, but I may honestly just be fooling myself. I have been more mindful of what I eat and I only drink water, but I don't count calories or walk which may make all the difference for me. The problem is that those two tasks seem so daunting for me and I don't know how to start. It's like I have the fuel, but I can't force myself to put the foot on the gas and just go. Advice would be very much welcome.
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