I am an obese but otherwise healthy female in her mid-20s who is actively losing body fat. I'm 5'5" in height and weigh 202 lbs as of this morning. (That's AWESOME, because at the start of the year I was 215.) I was chubby as a kid and super lean as a teenager (125lbs), but after I quit team sports in high school my weight crept up each year because I love to stuff my face. In my early 20s, I experienced a severe psychiatric episode and self medicated with junk food - I put on almost 60 pounds in a year, with my highest weight hitting 254. I was completely miserable, felt sick all of the time, and could barely get around. I am now on the right meds (including ADHD meds for the first time in several years, which have helped with my impulse control). I don't regret being as big as I was because I needed to learn that morbid obesity is not right for me. (PS - my A1C, cholesterol, and hormones are all in the normal range.)
In 2023, I finally dropped some weight and began to hover at around 222 until August of 2025. In autumn of last year, the ADHD meds kickstarted another wave of weight loss because I have much better impulse control and eat a balanced, lower-calorie diet. I also lift weight and walk + use the elliptical machine 2-4 times a week. Like I said, my morning weigh-in today had me at 202.8 lbs and I let out a celebratory cheer when I saw the number - I'm SO CLOSE to being out of the 200s!
But I still feel huge. I feel rotund. I am a giant beast! I know that 202 lbs on a petite 5'5" frame is still very big and I have a long way to go, but I sort-of don't feel any lighter than I was at 254. Thankfully, people in my life have noticed my recent weight drop (I've noticed it on my face too; I'm so pleased to see my jawline and beautiful neck coming back!). Has anyone else experienced this? Will it take a while until I start to feel "lighter"? I'm TIRED of feeling like I'm carrying around a bunch of kindergarteners on my waist all of the time. I wish that I could speed this process up. But the weight went on really gradually, so I know that it will come off gradually too. I'm just feeling so impatient.
TL;DR: My highest weight was 254 lbs. I am 202 lbs now and don't feel lighter, even though I'm steadily losing body fat, actively working on improving my strength and stamina, and can feel my muscles getting stronger. I'm wondering if I will ever get to a point where I don't feel like a whale anymore. Thoughts?
Edited for grammar and to add a contextual sentence.
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