Hey everyone! Some words about me first. I'm a 24M and i have been though it with weight loss. The biggest one i had was 4 years ago i went from 127 kg to 82 kg and ever since then i gained everything back and more going all the way to 142kg ! I have been dieting for the last month and lost about 10 kg and honestly i still feel very fat, especially when i see pictures of what i used to look like.
There are a lot of people in my life rn that have never seen me thin/fit and i usually keep it to myself cause when i show them they think its a different person. I feel so ashamed of how i look right now, its difficult to find clothes that fit well, go to interviews, have a dating life and be present in the moment. When i lost the weight i feel like everyone changed 180 degrees how they saw me, especially love interests, mutuals, colleagues and strangers but i know for sure it had something to also do with my confidence boost.
I basically came to the conclusion that pretty privilege is unfortunately a real thing. I feel like overweight/obese people wont be treated like thinner/fit people by everyone, meaning being OBESE and CONFIDENT is something that you have to work very hard to achieve whilst losing the weight and that its almost impossible since everything in the media and around us is 99% targeted to thin/fit/pretty/handsome people. Unfortunately, I believe this international community we built is mainly beneficial to these kind of individuals . When you open Instagram and just see fit people and models living their best life (i know its mostly fake) is very hard to stomach. Believe me i tried very hard to embrace my obese body whilst working on it but its really hard and frustrating when random people you talk to have to bring up your weight and be like you can make it, what's your diet and suggest their bizarre weight loss strategies when you haven't even asked for it. One of the most recent incidents i had was when i posted a picture myself after a long time because i thought i looked good in the gym and some of my mutuals Dmd me messages like you can do it, keep pushing ! when i just posted it because i thought i looked good lmao.
Anyhow, i am going to keep pushing and fighting for myself cause i know that i can manage it in the end and that this is just a phase and its a matter of time before i like what i see in the mirror. My biggest motivation right now from previous experience is that i know when i lose the weight everyone will change how they see me, be my true self, finally wear the clothes that i like and make my daily life easier ( the paper roll effect also gives me much motivation) . I give myself very big value as an individual and so should everyone despite their looks etc. but it gets hard sometimes...
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