this is a hard one, and i think i have to make a hard decision that might impact my friendship but i want to make sure that i am NTA if i choose to do this.
so i an currently on a weight loss journey, and i have officially lost around 35 from 235 and have at least 50 more pounds to go. while i have been losing weight, i have been keeping silent about me intentionally losing weight because some of my friends have a history with restrictive EDs. as someone who has (pointlessly) gone through ED treatment lite for restriction, i have seen that they tell all people, big or small, that intentionally losing weight is pointless and doing things like calorie restriction will just lead to you gaining all of the weight back and being unhappy, even if you lose all of the weight. while i understand that for people who are very underweight/deep into their ED this is helpful information, its definitely not information that obese people need to hear. unfortunately this ideology is something that my friend has due to being in treatment, so bringing up healthy or unhealthy weight loss with her is pointless at best and triggering for her at worst.
so my friend had a restrictive eating disorder and had to go to inpatient treatment for a little bit and she left inpatient treatment around 2 years ago. since she’s been back, ive noticed that she will wait for me to eat/order something to eat and get visibly annoyed or upset when i don’t eat and won’t eat as well, which is something that is new and has only started happening after she got treatment. of course this made me upset but i felt like if i said something she would act like i was making it up!
the hard part about this is that we have been eating lunch and dinner together almost daily so it makes it hard for me to focus on my calories and nutrition and things when im also worried about not triggering her. an eating pattern that i’ve noticed when im around her is that i will eat more/be more careless with what im eating when im around her because of the guilt that i feel, which obviously is NOT her fault but its something ive noticed about myself. she also jokes about being skinny/weight loss/eating disorders but has undefined boundaries that im not really sure about so i thought it was okay to joke about it too. well apparently it wasn’t because she blew up on me and told me to stop talking like that around her (which is totally valid) but made me realize i had to make a change for myself too. so i think after today i wont be eating around her and sharing meals with her because its slowing down my progress and triggering me and i dont want to trigger her as well.
does this make me an asshole? i feel like this confrontation is a really good time to place some concrete boundaries so that neither of us are triggered or hurt. i will, of course, also cease to talk about or joke about weight loss in any fashion, which is something that ill admit that i shouldn’t have done in the first place.
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