Losing weight but..

Hi, Im new to this group. I’m 27 years old mama of 2 beautiful toddlers boys 3 years old and soon to be 2 years old. Gained so much weight from 21-27…

I guess I’ll start from the beginning bc it started to hit me recently since I finally got a hold of my weight loss journey and actually stuck with it but growing up my mother would always call me names especially fat and obese. I was always in sports sometimes 2 sports in one season. She would make me run every day from the age 10-17 and if I stopped running she would add another mile until I completed without stopping. There’s much more abuse when it came down to my weight . She would make my siblings call me fat and poke fun of me. Sometimes she would even buy two sizes down so I wouldn’t have new clothes there’s a lot of baggage I’m unpacking in therapy. The reason I say this is because I’m 27 and after many years of not looking back at my photos because I have horrible body dysmorphia I did recently and started balling my eyes out. My whole life I believed every word my mom told me. I had an ED growing up bc of it and I guess I’m shocked and angry about it because turns out I wasn’t fat. I was a fit teenager healthy and curvy! And I hate that I allowed someone who I thought cared about my weight treat me the way she did that it’s now causing problems for my mind when I’m actually losing weight . I’m constantly talking down to myself . My Husband is the sweetest and motivates me and compliments me no matter the size I was and am right now. I’m grateful I have someone like him to remind me I’m strong and capable and to continue to work on myself for me.

Did anyone else go through this?

I started therapy recently to help with my mind and healing parts of myself . I let myself go and I’m finally taking myself back. I don’t have food noise anymore! I’m eating less! My stomach has gone down and I’m actually proud of myself. I’m on a calorie deficit and so far I have lost 10 lbs but what’s crazy is how much bloating has gone away! I’m 5’8 I started at 315lbs I’m currently 305lbs ! My goal weight right now is to be at 245lbs and go from there and see how I feel and look and then decide if I still want to go down more . I’ve always been curvy thick thighs and butt so I want to keep my figure curvy . I’m doing HIIT workouts at home and walking daily . I hope to reach my goal . I started this journey a month ago and I just need all the positive energy my way. Prayers anything really . 🤍 I’m really excited to be apart of this group and gain insight and advice !

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