I’ve been loosing weight for the last five years. I’ve lost 195 pounds, 180 of those pounds came off naturally with cico and exercise and the last 15lbs has been with the help of glps which I started on in the beginning of June to help break a plateau after injuring my knee training for a half marathon and being unable to workout how I usually did. (I’m recovered now and back in my routines!)
I’m just 15 ish lbs away from being at a healthy bmi and it will be for the first time in my whole life I’ve ever been considered healthy. I know I’ve gone pretty slow and took my time but I still feel a bit shocked. Looking at old photos I feel disconnected from myself and how I lived my life before making these changes. It’s kind of a mind fuck to put it bluntly.
I’m in therapy and we started to talk about this. Recently started with a new therapist bc my old therapist was not helpful on this topic at all and as you can imagine it’s become a pretty big one for me.
I sometimes get embarrassed to share this information about my massive weight loss with new friends who never knew me as a big person, in some ways I wish no one ever did, but it feels not genuine to not share. But also who I was feels not genuine to who I am now. I guess I want to have more empathy for myself and at least body neutrality. Idk it’s so complicated for me. Bc I do feel like I give myself grace but I just feel like a little lost in who I am now. But I’m happy with the changes and my lifestyle. I feel healthy. And that means a lot.
Anyways, how do you guys feel about it?
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