Sorry I feel like this is going to be pretty long. I just don’t want to have to talk about this situation to anyone in my real life because it was so humiliating and I’d rather not re-live it & experience the emotions again bc I’m v sensitive. Anyways, yesterday we celebrated my aunts birthday at the boardwalk in Santa Cruz. I absolutely loved coming here as a kid and I haven’t been back to go on the rides since I was in my early years of high school? For reference I’m 24(f), probably 265lbs now, and I’ve been very on and off with my weight loss journey since the pandemic. I’ve always been a little “thicker?” I guess. But during the pandemic I will admit I just let myself go. Anyways (again lol sry), I was so excited to go on rides because we got the all day wristbands. My girlfriend and I arrived first and we decided to hit a couple rides before it got really busy. The first ride I went on, I noticed the lady had to come back and push the harness down even more than it already was.. and I was lowkey already really tight in there. Whatever, it clicked. This was on my mind as I went on my next ride, that one clicked with an extra push as well. Then we decided to go to the beach for a good chunk of the day. When we were finally all together, we couldn’t waittttt to go hit all the rides. Some of us split up for some, but for the most part we all went together. Until we got to the fireball ride. This was my absolute favorite ride as a kid, I can’t even remember when I went on it last. For this one, it was just my aunt and my cousins girlfriend. We waited probably 20-25 minutes for this ride. We were all talking about how we couldn’t wait to get that feeling when you lose your stomach. It was finalllyyy our turn and we go put our bags down and hop into the seats. We pull our harnesses down and wait for the workers to come by and check us. The guy came over to me and asked if it was okay if he tried to push my harness in more. Once again it was already tight.. I didn’t realize it needed to click again. I said yes of course. He couldn’t do it.. he asked his coworker to come by and push with him. They both pushed on my harness for probably 10-15 seconds. This was already so embarrassing just for them to try because if you know the fireball ride, everyone is basically sitting in a circle facing each other. So everyone was waiting on me to get the ride started. He told me “I’m so sorry.. it’s not safe..” I appreciated him letting me down easy. He never said the words “get off the ride” he just told me it wasn’t safe, which i understand. What made it worse was everyone who was already harnessed in had to start all over so everyone got unbuckles.. I feel like I blacked out walking out of there. I pulled off into a corner and just cried, watch my aunt and cousins girlfriend have their turn on the ride. This was the most humiliating experience I’ve ever had. I hated that I had to wait there for them after the ride because we didn’t exchange words when I got off. So I knew we were going to have to acknowledge that I couldn’t ride. They came off and were so sorry and said they didn’t know what to do whether they should get off or not. I was glad they got to ride, it wasn’t their fault. After this, we met up with everyone else and I couldn’t hide the look on my face. So I decided to just take the keys and go take a breather in the car. I cried for 30 minutes. I feel like if this wasn’t a wake up call to lock in idk what will be. I never want to feel how I felt last night again. Sorry this was so long I feel like I just needed to get it off my chest. Thanks if you came this far🥺
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