Hi I’m 19 and I’ve lost 80 pounds officially this week. But I still hate myself more than ever, I miss when I was numb to the feeling of loneliness like it wasn’t even an option for me. But now there’s no more excuses I still hate myself deeply. Like Im not sure what’s next? I don’t know if I’m attractive I don’t know what others think now. I’ve entered a new life stage these past two weeks and I still feel the same so I’ve begun starving myself kind of? I don’t eat nearly enough for my height and weight but I love it, I love the feeling it gives me I’m not gonna lie. As bad as this is to admit I just want to feel wanted by someone else. I don’t feel like there’s a point to anything? Like why would I do anything at all if I’m never going to feel wanted? I’m thinking of maybe leaving this new stage of life early? I’m not even doing bad I’ve talked to people but I just still feel so alone. I feel invisible to women? I’m afraid my presence alone scares them because I’m on the taller side and have very dead eyes. Idk where the hell im gonna end up if this continues but weight loss for me has been a big nothing.
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