TL:DR I’ve been obese all my life and have tried almost everything. Trauma, bulimia, and binge eating disorder are factors but years of therapy and dieting have had no effect. I want to try CICO again bc of the advice I’ve read on Reddit. Can it really work? How has it worked for you?
Being massively overweight has been the defining factor of my life. I’ve always been morbidly obese for my age. I experienced trauma as a baby, as well as childhood through teen years, and I believe I coped with the only drug I had access to, junk food. My mom was mentally ill and her meds made her sleep most of the day. We were poor and I can remember just watching tv alone and eating strange foods I could find and make myself. I’d regularly eat saltines with ranch or ketchup on them, tortillas with butter and sugar, soda, baby food, chips/candy, and mayo and cheese sandwiches. I was taken away and placed into foster care aged 10 because of my weight. I think my ability to live long term in miserable situations as well as depression and binge eating disorder have contributed to me being complacent like this. But I’m turning 30 in 6 months, I don’t have a normal life, I am unhappy and I can’t do this anymore.
I have no thyroid issues or medical reasons for being obese. I’ve considered weight loss surgery but that isn’t an option right now. Diets and/or techniques I’ve tried throughout the years, starting in childhood: weight watchers, South Beach, Adkins, calorie restriction, 2 hour daily gym sessions, maple syrup diet, fasting, IF, Keto, Vegan, cabbage soup diet, vegetarian, whole food plant based, dietitian assisted, doctor assisted, years of talk therapy, walking, weight lifting, dancing, high carb, low carb, going days without food, and unfortunately, binging and purging. Most of these lasted anywhere from a week to a few years and I’m bigger then ever.
I had a terrible thought a couple years ago. That if I couldn’t get it under control by age 30, then what was the point in continuing my life? I promise I have no plans to off myself, but I had a point. I feel like I wasted my entire youth having the body of an old frail person. I spent my formative years isolated and unable to connect with my peers. I have no social or dating life to speak of. I’ve experienced countless embarrassing moments, bullying and rude comments, looks of pity, disgust, or mockery. I hide in my house because I can’t stand the mental exhaustion of constantly thinking about how people look at and treat me. I cannot continue on this way.
With the end of my young years coming, I have the motivation to change, I just need the technique. I’m starting an pretty active job soon, active enough that I’ll be in serious pain by the time I come home. It will be as much exercise as I can handle. I’ve stalked this thread long before making an account. I’ve seen so many of you say the CICO finally worked for you. I’ve tried it as well and always fell off the wagon with tracking and back to fast food and binging. Anyone been in a similar situation as myself? Can you describe how CICO has actually worked for you, or what techniques finally did? Thank you.
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