A bit of background, I’m a 36 year old female, 5’4” and 219lbs, Ive lost a total of 68lbs so far.
I’ve been out of shape my entire life, I never could get into fitness or watching over my calories. I knew my lifestyle was wrong so I did make a ton of efforts to lose some weight but they all failed because I couldn’t stick to the actual plan.
After I had 2 babies changed, I couldn’t lose the weight and my priorities started to change, fast forward about a decade, I was at my heaviest weight at 287lbs. I was now a single mother with two sons, my life at this point was basically focused on my kids exclusively, I stopped caring about my weight subconsciously, it was also the most miserable point in my life.
Food was my safe haven and it gave me peace for a few minutes then I would feel disgusted with myself but I couldn’t stop, I would give in to my cravings and I wouldn’t think twice about it, I had breakfast, took my kids to school, grabbed something off Starbucks and headed to work, working in a data entry job and just sitting down and working in Excel and Word all day isn’t exactly a healthy work environment either, but I was comfortable doing what I do. I would then eat at whichever fast food place I was craving, after work I would grab something else at Starbucks then pick up my kiddos, and since school lunch sucks they’re always hungry after school.
I would start cooking my first homemade meal of the day and promise myself every time I wasn’t going to eat since I had already been eating all day but it never worked and I always joined them, when dinner came around the same thing would happen, every time I looked in a mirror I felt disgusted, so I avoided looking at my body.
I have a disproportionate fat distribution and almost all of my weight is in my stomach, I looked constantly bloated even though it’s all body fat. My eldest kid has told me that he thought I was going to have another baby soon and asked me why I’ve been pregnant for a long time at that moment I didn’t take it negatively at all, I joked around with him and poked fun at myself. I felt completely self conscious out of home though, I was constantly paranoid what my coworkers thought about me, or if someone is about to ask me when I’m due, it was an insecurity that was completely ruining every day.
Until one day, a friend of my baby came over to play and asked me if he could hear the baby, I was completely shook and I had no idea how to respond, I froze for a few seconds and then told him I wasn’t pregnant and he said oh and left.
At that moment I knew I had no other choice but to make a change, I could either keep living like this or make some changes in my life, I first decided to cut the fast food I was eating for lunch every day and started to make homemade food to bring for lunch. In my first month I lost 8 pounds, after 2 months I cut out Starbucks, which was the hardest for me but I did and stuck with it. After 3 months I finally stopped drinking any carbonated or sugary drinks and replaced them with water. I’ve lost 68 pounds so far and I won’t stop.
I’ve been lurking around this subreddit for a really long time now and I finally decided it was time to share my story on here, thank you for reading ❤️.
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