I’m sorry for my bad english.
I joined two pictures, one taken by a colleague in december 2018. The other one is just a selfie I took today for comparison.
I made a comment about two years ago on this subreddit, basically saying that it was the start of my weight loss journey. I was 78 kg (171 lbs) at the time. I needed to lose about 15 kg (33 lbs).
Except that didn’t happen.
I gained 10 more kg (22 lbs) in the span of a very hectic year. I now needed to lose 25 kgs (55 lbs), and it seemed impossible.
But, guess what (I’m really happy with myself), I did it Reddit !
Did I have a more motivating goal than a year before ? Absolutely not.
The first time, I saw a girl at my goal weight, looking a bit like me, having a jawline, and I wanted that.
The second time around, in june 2019, I was alone at the beach in a foreign country, free of pressure (I didn’t know anyone there and thought I didn’t care about what they saw), and I couldn’t change into my beautiful bathing suit because I felt so bad about myself.
The second time (the one that worked !), my need to lose weight came from the disgust I had with myself, which was not a good place to start, at all.
But well, I guess it got me started for the second time, so there’s that.
What did I do better ?
Well, the main thing I did was mealprepping. Instead of going to the bakery everyday at work, I made my meals at home and almost stopped going out.
I also read this sub a lot, and here’s what was the most useful to me :
- Sustainable habits. I got that part with the mealprepping, and I came to like it. I also learned to allow myself to go out for drinks with my friends. I love it, and frankly as long as I plan the calories, it’s allright with me ;
- CICO, obviously ;
- Reading a few posts on r/loseit in the morning (either people starting their weightloss, people having a SV or a NSV, or just everyday struggles) helps me getting in the « weightloss mood » : I’m more motivated to walk a bit more to go to work, or to resist the numerous croissants I’m offered once I get there ;
- Weighing myself and putting it into an app (Loseit in my case). Seeing the numbers go down motivated me to continue, and seeing patterns helped me not to freak out when it went up (damn periods).
It took me 7 months to lose those 25 kgs (55 lbs), and while it was really hard at the beginning, it didn’t feel impossible after I lost the first 10 (22 lbs).
Now for the struggles :
- External validation (litteraly everybody noticed I lost weight… after the first 15 kg (33 lbs), before that people really were oblivious) unfocuses me. While I know I lost weight for myself, having people tell me I look good unmotivated me to lose the last 5 (11 lbs) ;
- I’m still addicted to the scale, which is not an awful thing since I stopped calorie counting. But my relationship with food is not as relaxed as I’d like it to be ;
And by far the worst :
- I thought that with the weightloss, I would learn self control. After all, I prepped my meals, didn’t snack, didn’t take breakfast, planned outings. Control all over.
But whenever there’s snacks around, I can’t stop eating them. For now, I avoid snacks like plague (or coronavirus), but sometimes it’s unavoidable (when I’m with people who snack, mostly).
So, for the moment, as I’m unable to have just one piece of chocolate, it’s no chocolate at all.
That’s the main thing that makes me feel like weightloss’s not over.
I hope this post found you well, and I’ll still be there upvoting posts in the mornings to focus on maintaining, you’ve got this !
I almost forgot :
Main benefit : no thigh chaffing/burning/hurting like crazy. That is seriously the best thing, above sleeping better, generally feeling healthier (you can feel it ! it's amazing), my friends being really happy for me, and better cooking skills.
I haven't noticed people treating me better/noticing me more.