There’s really no point of this post it’s more like something that’s been on my mind that no one in my life can relate to.
About me - Female, 22 H: 173cm (5’9) ST: 93kgs CW: 68kgs
So my entire life my parents have been weird about my weight. Like they’d look at how much food I’d take, they’d judge what I ate. Even now.
Since I could even remember, my dad would make little comments about my weight, calling me heavy, comparing me to my siblings, he’d ask me to step on the scale in front of him when I was like 11.
When I was 11 he offered me some chocolate (like one of those huge blocks of chocolate) and I took a row (4 pieces) and I started laughing like “sorry I’m taking the row it just broke off” then he got really mad and started yelling and calling me fat. It really stuck with me but I never reacted.
Ever since then I pretty much had an eating disorder. I would binge eat for days and then I would starve myself for days. And that went on for years.
I feel like I’m in the best shape I’ve ever been in my life right now because I improved my relationship with food and I have a bit of muscle. But losing weight gave me severe depression and social anxiety and I think I have body dysmorphia. I still haven’t processed that I’ve lost the weight and I still see myself as fat. But my sister jokes and says I look anorexic sometimes. After losing the weight my dad said “are you okay? You look skinny. Don’t lose too much weight you can’t be underweight and you can’t be overweight” pretty much implying that I look underweight and unhealthy now. And mind you I’m at a healthy weight.
You just can’t win. People will always have something to say so just focus on yourself and improve yourself. I know my dad was probably just trying to make me understand that it’s unhealthy to be overweight but he never really helped me. Honestly he would just judge me and mock me. I wish that as a kid my parents would try and help me instead of pass a comment.
Idk what the point of this post was but I thought I’d share since nobody in my personal life can relate and you all probably know what it’s like to be fat shamed by your own people. Feel free to share your stories.
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