I've recently started another attempt at weight loss (prior attempts dropped due to lack of resources and motivation) and yet again have realized just how miserable my life is without eating as I please. In times where I couldn't be bothered with my weight I would easily eat thousands of calories a day and to be honest when I was eating I loved every second of it.
Obviously, that took large amounts of time and energy and the whole ordeal overall typically left me quite placated. I say placated because it's not like I was genuinely happy with it or anything, but I was left just pleased and drained enough that I didn't have energy to be angry or miserable.
Now I'm on 1500-1600 calorie OMAD and while my macros and such are in order and I'm not in risk of starving any time soon, the void of pleasure and time spent left by my lack of overeating have become apparent. What has also become apparent, is that my life is extremely fucking boring as well as miserable. The most exciting part of the grand majority of my days is still when I break my fast. My job is boring and job opportunities are scarce, my college curriculum is boring but there's no real way around that, and my free time is at best boring and at worst frustrating. It also doesn't help that my net worth is literally nothing and I'm lucky to ever have any disposable income.
Now, I know there's going to be some cliche advice thrown around, so let's just address that now:
"Exercise more." That would be all well and good except for the fact I prefer my exercise to be at least somewhat engaging and I can no longer afford the physical activities I used to engage in outside of work. That's not to mention it's possible to exercise too much when losing weight and simply damage your muscles, which is a mistake I made last time.
"Just jerk off until you're raw." This one might sound out of left field, but I've seen it a surprising number of times. I personally find it stupid. That filthy act can only do so much at the best of times, and besides that my libido is so low I only get the urge once or twice a week if that.
"Just do drugs." I'm completely broke, first off, so I couldn't afford them anyways. Second off, I'm not looking to replace one vice with an even worse one.
"Get a better job." I hate this one. It reeks of privilege and naivete. As if it's easy getting a decent job. I'm lucky to even have a job, and the last thing I can afford right now is to throw it away.
"Go to school." I'm already in school, and to be quite frank it was a waste of time. If I went down my original path of accounting I would be in school for 6-7 years, gathering experience for 1-2, spending another 1-2 getting my CPA, and most likely another year getting my shit together so I can move somewhere with some actual opportunities. I would be in my 30s before a stable career would even be a consideration, and I'd rather shoot myself than work and wait that long just for that. So, instead, I just used the credits I do have to get the easiest associates' available to me so I have a backup in case I decide to waste more time and money in the future.
"Get better hobbies." First off, with what money? Second off, I'm not creatively inclined so all the free crap like writing, drawing, and such just bore me. I also find just sitting around watching shows, movies, or videos pretty damn boring.
"Get more/better friends." Where? Nothing and nowhere is free nowadays and going places and doing things is how you make friends.
Now, besides regurgitating cliches, does anyone have some actual advice for this situation?
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