F29 | 5"5/165cm | SW&CW: 235-240lbs/107-109kg | GW: 135-140lbs/61-63kg
During my teen years I was "average/curvy" (skinnyfat but busty) but I took that for granted; I wasn't health-conscious at all, and in consequence my weight climbed very gradually over the years from ~140 to 220lbs (63 to 100kg) by my mid-twenties.
I realized I was starting to hate my body instead of the "chubby and confident" persona I'd had for years, not to mention that my health was starting to catch up to me. So in spring of 2017 I began counting calories and lost 55-60lbs (25-27kg) by the end of the year.
My knees and ankles stopped hurting, my back pain became nearly non-existant, my mental health was improving, and even my monthly cycles were drastically less painful (and more regular!). I was feeling confident about reaching my future health and appearance goals, but during my plateau/break in the winter of 2017-18 my partner and I took a major step and decided to try for a baby.
It (thankfully) didn't take long, but it put my weight loss on hold. I figured I'd gotten my appetite under control since I maintained my weight during the first trimester, but during mid- and late pregnancy, my hunger spiked to ridiculous levels and I gave in because I felt "the baby must need it." Big mistake - you're not eating for 2 during pregnancy, you're only eating for one with a few hundred extra calories per day.
By the time my baby was born in November, I was 255lbs (116kg) (a gain of 90-95lbs [41-43kg] ...yikes), and then I only lost barely 20lbs (9kg) from the birth. So here I am, back at square one, 15-20lbs (7-9kg) over my original start weight and ~100lbs (45kg) over my original/current goal weight. My knees, ankles, and back are once again under lots of pressure, and my hips are still recovering from my centre of gravity being shifted for all those months (I'm sure my weight now certainly isn't helping.)
It's so frustrating to know I have to start again and go even further than I did the first time. Counting calories to lose weight is simple, but it's not easy. I know how, and I know it works, but I'm really not looking forward to having to limit my portions to basically 1/3 or 1/2 of what my partner is eating. That is the 2nd hardest thing I've ever had to do physically, after only pregnancy/recovery.
But it needs to be done. I felt so much better at 160-165lbs (72-75kg) before getting pregnant, and I wasn't even down to my goal weight yet. I need to be healthy so I can be a good parent - I want to be able to chase around my child when he's a toddler, take him for walks and trips to the park, play in the yard, etc. and not just sit there watching him because I'm too heavy, sore, and embarrassed to participate. I need to live longer to be there to watch him grow up, and to be a positive example that it's never too late to take control and improve your life.
So, people of this amazing subreddit, I'm writing this to keep myself accountable: once the holidays have passed, I will be back to doing lots of food-related math that will result in me getting smaller, lighter, and healthier. For all of you, for myself, but especially for my son.
Only about 350,000 uneaten calories to go!
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