The woman who was convinced she had a particular illness that was preventing her from losing weight? Me. The woman who made fun of the “2 portions” label on ready-made products or in recipes? Me. Why do potato chips have an expiration date? Yep. Me.
I spent so much time trying to find reasons why I was gaining or not losing weight. Because it obviously couldn't be because of my eating habits. I cook fresh. That portion of pasta would feed two people? Oh nonsense, that's what I always eat. Did I realize that was exactly the point? No.
Yes. Okey. I finally got a diagnosis in April that explained a lot: ADHD. I had to have blood work done. My doctor asked me if I had ever thought about the weight loss injection. I weighed 120 kg, as a woman of 1.80 m.
Cheeky of him to ask that. I wasn't that fat, for sure. I was given my ADHD medication in May.
And suddenly I realized that I no longer wanted to eat all the time. Not thoughtless snacks all the time. Not chasing dopamine. I cooked myself food and suddenly the portions were too big. I didn't want to eat anymore, even though there was still something on the plate.... Is this what being full feels like? The bag of potato chips will now last me a week. I found an opened packet of cookies in the cupboard that I forgot about. My meal prep now lasts for two days instead of one.
Yes, I have an illness. But not in the way I thought. Now I know what you're always talking about here. Now I know what normal eating feels like. Being full. Being able to say no. Not feeling cravings. Being satisfied.
No longer living between the three apocalyptic questions: What's for breakfast? What's for lunch? Dinner?
Normal amounts of calories. Normal portion sizes. Wow.
I'm now at 112 kg. Guess what, it depends on the calories you put in.
Nevertheless: people, be vigilant. Maybe you really do have a problem that is preventing you from being honest with yourself. Get some help. We can make it.
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