I’ve lost around 160 lbs over the last two years but have hit a major plateau since July and have been struggling with a lot of defeatist thoughts and temptations to slip back into old patterns. I’m coming out on the right side of it but it’s been a struggle.
One thing I’ve found that’s especially kind of messy is I’ve developed body dysmorphia, and in mirrors and pictures I feel like I look exactly the same as I did at my highest weight. I know intellectually, from the scale and the clothes I wear, I’ve lost a bunch of weight; I just don’t see or feel it, so I spend a lot of time looking at photos of other women who have the same measurements I do. I don’t believe I look like them at all, but whatever.
I’ve been buying the same style and brand of jeans in successively smaller sizes since I began losing weight because they’re cheap and fit short people well and I hate thinking about clothes, but I read a review of the jeans where someone said they were vanity sized and it was disappointing to find out they didn’t really wear size X in other jeans. I went to a thrift store the other day and picked up a couple pairs of jeans to wear outside in winter, and remembered the review. I decided I wasn’t really the size I thought I was and bought one size bigger so I wouldn’t be embarrassed/disappointed when I tried them on. I tried them on, and they’re way too big.
I guess I’m actually the size I thought I was and I’m not just imagining the weight loss. I still have some more progress to make, but it’s nice to have some sort of tangible confirmation I’m not just pretending.
This is maybe more of a small mental healing victory, but it feels significant in some way. Hopefully it’ll help motivate me onward as I trudge along toward goal weight and maintenance.
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