It's like willingly torturing myself by watching weight loss and diet videos. They all say drastically different things and it confuses me and makes me cry but I still watch them in hopes of finding a way to lose weight that doesn't leave me miserable. Until a few months ago I was dealing with unimaginable mental pressure. I have severe OCD and it impacted my life in a horrible way, and it resulted in 3 year long trauma. I had gone to the verge of literal madness and insanity. That caused me to eat emotionally and gain weight. During that time I didn't care how I looked, I accepted it with no hatred because food was the one of the only sources of joy I had left. But I slowly started to feel better and heal, and that's when I realized I should change my lifestyle for the better. So I tried eating more reasonably. Every day I'm becoming more obsessed with weight loss and it's making me cry. Every single day I'm sad because I am hungry all day long and I just want to devour any food I see. And I watch diet videos and make myself cry. I love food. It's very hard for me to restrict myself. I hate every single effort I make for dieting and mind you I still binge eat after every few days of restriction. I just want to enjoy my life please help me. I've lost about 5 kgs in the past 7 months but I still need to continue. My OCD is not letting me think and live rationally. I'm only 17 I don't want to have a toxic relationship with food.
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