Hey everyone, long-time lurker here, and I wanted to share a bit of my journey!
Last year, I weighed in at 80.1kg (176.5 lbs), which was the heaviest I’d ever been. At my height of 165cm (roughly 5'5"), it really scared me. I’ve always had a complicated relationship with food and exercise—my ADHD often made me hyperfocus, leading to crash diets and unhealthy habits like obsessive eating disorders.
However, this time, I didn’t focus solely on weight loss. Instead, I was working on improving my art and other personal growth, and my weight loss happened as a "background process." This shift in mindset turned into a really healthy, lifestyle-changing experience.
Losing weight became second nature, and over the course of a year, I lost 13kg (around 30lbs)—slower than average, but I’m happy with the progress. I now weigh 67kg (147lbs).
The upsides have been incredible: people treat me better, I get more attention from guys, my personal aesthetic (think early 00s emo with swoopy hair and eyeliner) suits me better, and my features are looking more androgynous. I've even had queer men hit on me, which is such a sweet compliment (even though I’m AFAB). It feels like I’m finally conquering that boss in a video game that defeated me a thousand times.
However, I still struggle with body dysmorphia. I sometimes catch myself thinking I'm still overweight—like when I see a small pair of pants and assume they won’t fit, or make comments like, "I’m not sitting on that chair, it might break," only for my friends to look at me like I’m crazy. I’m still scared to sit on people’s laps and sometimes feel the same when I look in the mirror.
I’m hoping that, over time, my mind will catch up with my body and that these feelings will fade.
I know my story might not be as dramatic or extreme as some others here, but I’m grateful to have a place to share this small but meaningful change.
I’m currently at the halfway point of my journey, and my goal is to eventually reach 58kg (127lbs), if it’s sustainable and feels right.
Thanks for reading, and I’m excited to continue this journey!
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