I guess this is a weird one.
I need and want to lose weight for health reasons. I've had some serious health problems (not directly weight related) over the past couple of years and now that I'm better I want to give myself the best chance I can of living as long and healthily as possible.
I don't care about my appearance at all. It just doesn't bother me.
I've lost about a stone so far this year. It's early days and I have a lot more to lose but it's going reasonably well. I think I've worked out how to do this.
But I am also autistic. I struggle with pretty severe demand avoidance and a real horror of being perceived. When people notice things about me it causes a painful cringing embarrassment. I only feel any kind of comfortable if I feel like I'm practically invisible.
Already, people have started making comments, asking if I've lost weight, and it's causing a skin-crawling kind of discomfort. It makes me feel exposed and vulnerable and it takes a huge amount of effort to keep up my nodding and smiling.
I know it's only going to get worse the more weight I lose and it's filling me with dread. It makes me want to not lose weight, even though my logical brain knows my health is more important than my embarrassment.
I'm not sure what I'm asking. This might be more an autism question than a weight loss one. But does anyone else have a similar experience or any suggestions as to how to lose weight when a significant part of your brain is telling you it's going to lead to the most humiliating feeling?
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