I 21f have struggled with my weight my whole life and growing up as a ballerina I yo-yoed heavily between starving myself and binging.
Well a couple years ago I had a real wake-up call realizing I was 240lbs at 19 and the number was not going down.
I was determined to do it differently this time. I picked running back up, switched out my typical breakfast for overnight oats, and switched out my daily lunch for a salad.
I lost 40lbs pretty quickly. I have had a lot of setbacks since that initial 40lbs; two back-to-back injuries, grad school, and an incredibly complicated living situation. I have taken hiatuses, I have put back on (and relost) 10 or 15lbs but I am back at it again now and that's what matters.
Anyways, I could never see the difference between my heaviest weight and my weight now (roughly 190lbs) which I know sounds crazy because its a difference of 50lbs but body dysmorphia makes you see crazy things. Other people commented on my weight loss but I just couldnt see it. I could feel it sure and I knew it was real because the scale was telling me but I couldnt see it.
This weekend I was scrolling through old videos and found one of me from my heaviest running in a sporty halter dress. I thought I looked different but I had to be sure. I put on the sundress despite it snowing outside and had my boyfriend take a video of me.
HOLY COW!!! I actually do look different!! I dont have back fat spilling over the back of my halter dress now, you can see my arm muscles now, I run faster now, and more than all of that, I am different. I don't know why it suddenly clicked but my god am I glad it did.
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