First time ever posting… 47 year old man who has been over 300 lbs since I was a young teenager, unable to buy cloths in “normal” stores since junior high, that big and tall life. In the last three years I have lost over 240lbs thru diet and hard exercise, with 110 of it being in the last year (590lbs to 350lbs) . I feel like I’ve hit a good feedback loop now where I’m trying to eat better to workout harder and I’m feeling like a million bucks compared to the pain of just being that big, I know this time I might have a chance to actually reach goals I could never think to before. However I have had some real mental hurdles thru this, I still see the fat guy, In the mirror and in my mind. Today was a weird milestone, for the first time in…ever, I went to Walmart and tried on a 3xl shirt and it fit comfortably, I broke down and cried in the changing room for 10 minutes. I cannot accept the person in the mirror as me, no matter how much I tell myself or others tell me how good I’m doing. Just random strangers or people who haven’t seen me in forever telling me how good I look makes me feel worse. No one complimented me ever on my looks, just “ you have such a great personality” and now it happens a lot and it’s a hard pill to swallow. It’s almost is starting to feel like a slap in the face. I actually feel less confidant in this new body I’ve worked so fucking hard for and it’s starting to drive me crazy a bit. Maybe this was a rant I need to get off my chest… maybe I’m asking for advice.. I don’t know anymore.
Thanks for listening.
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