Hey everyone, first time posting here. I'm sharing a bit of my journey as I've not really talked much about my weight loss this time around to people in my life because it feels embarrassing to be restarting. You all seem super supportive, I love the posts in this community.
I'm 25F and 5'5, and in 2024 I started my weight loss journey after years of depression, overeating and general just lack of care towards my body. I started off at 259lbs in September 2024 and lost 43lbs by Christmas 2024, through a calorie defecit and started going swimming which I quickly rediscovered my love for and adopted 3-4x per week. Previously I was super inactive because I hate sweating and exercise in general, and gyms are intimidating af to me, so this worked super well.
I lost my footing a bit going into 2025 and was on and off, lots of things happened - I was diagnosed with autism, my grandad that I helped care for passed away, and I ended up burning out hugely after a lot going on in general in my life. My weight loss stopped at 216lbs and as I was in a bad place I went back to old habits, stopped going swimming and piled all the weight back on. Literally all the weight.
In April I finally faced the scales and discovered I was back up to 258lbs. Devastating yes, but after being sick with burnout for so long I decided I was turning my life around, so I cut some duties that were burning me out from my life to focus on me and my health. I was also diagnosed with ADHD late 2025, which helps to explain some of my dopamine seeking habits with food and lack of impulse control, so this time around I was armed with some ideas of what to do to reduce this.
I started off by going back swimming again a few times, then ended up beginning to go with a friend I hadn't seen in years, after going round for an impromptu cup of tea and chat where it came up. Then I completely stopped buying all my binge trigger foods - family bags of crisps, chocolate and sweet treats etc - but allowed myself occasional dopamine giving treats (low cal crisps, bought a multipack of small chocolates which I still haven't finished now, just so the restriction didn't get too harsh that I'd spiral out). I didn't commit to too many weigh ins or proper calorie defecit just yet as I was still recovering a bit from burnout and it felt so overwhelming, but I aimed to eat vaguely as I remembered from the previous time around.
I'm now back swimming 3-4x a week with my friend and from the beginning of May I started calorie counting again properly, weighing everything out just like the first time, and I've been weighing in regularly again and today I weighed in at 237.5lbs - I'm now down 20lbs for the second time!
I'm so proud of myself for choosing to focus on this again because being fat is making me miserable. This time around I feel like somehow my cravings have really not been strong at all since removing things from the house and my appetite feels hugely shrunken (may be from coming off contraception recently), the defecit does feel quite easy at the moment - I'm on 1750 cals currently, but most days I only eat 1200-1500, and then sometimes use the banked calories for a treat meal or something at the weekends which can again help me to stop that restriction triggering to binge eating. Of course I will adjust calorie goals again soon whilst losing more weight.
I've even decided to start going to the gym for weight training and went to a gym for the FIRST EVER time this week which is literally a huge milestone as I'm terrified of looking like an idiot! I also got my personal best avg swimming pace EVER this week despite being heavier than I was on my previous best swim, and my resting heart rate has gone down hugely.
Truly I feel so positive this time around and I'm looking to a goal of around 180lbs at the end, maybe that will change at some point but either way I know that it will take a while to get there. It does suck that I reversed all my initial progress, but I'm working on being more forgiving on myself after years of self hatred as that's the only way I'm gonna progress. Thank you to this community because these online spaces make me feel less alone.
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