Accountability {M/26/285}

Hello,

I am using this post to help keep me accountable for my current weight loss regime. I have a wedding to attend, my own in fact. I am already embarrassed to what the wedding photos will look like with me in it. So with that said, my goal weight is 220 with a current weight at 285. There are more reasons to wanting/needing to lose this weight. Such as, battling with gout for almost 3 years, ankle issues that sometimes make me immobile, people making stupid comments.

I guess what is hard for me, is when meeting new friends or people in general they see this fat kid. I was not always this big as i am. Im not going to lie, after college i totally went south when it came to my health. It was almost like as soon as I started my career, i made up for all the eating that i "missed" during college.

I am a former wrestler/mma fighter. I wrestled for 8 years of my life. So I was used to the cutting weight aspect in life as I wrestled at 170~ up until my junior year of college. i know i have it in me to do it and way more than enough resources to do so. I am just being very lazy at the moment.

Some people consider them selves "stress eaters" where as i consider myself a "happy eater". When im stressed about work or life in general, i dont even think about having an appetite. However, when i have good day boy o boy what is there to eat?! im talking pizza, wings, ice cream and wash it down with some root beer. if not pizza, then some Nashville Hot Chicken. Im not even "depressed" or anything. Its this idea of "i didnt get to have this in college, now that i can afford it its time to eat"

Holy fuck, as I am writing this down im ashamed that this is my daily routine. I changed my mindset since the beginning of the year. So from here on out, i will use this post as an accountability for when i have those "cravings" of a bad lifestyle. the future me will appreciate this. I am a firm believer of "if its not in writing.." so since its writing, i have to do this shit.

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Thanks for coming to my rant, if you read this.

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Where are all my short girls who struggle to lose and talk about those 10-20 lbs they've gained

10-15 lbs does NOT sound like a lot. I get it. SO many people on this sub have achieved crazy amazing things, and I read all your stories and feel blown away by all the consistent effort and commitment.

I'm short, and i am getting chubby. But im only around 11 lbs overweight based on my ideal weight. On a woman who is 5'8 - 5'9 those extra lbs disperse a lot less noticeably and its easier to fluctuate without sizing up significantly.

However, when I gain even 5lbs at 5'2, i feel it EVERYWHERE. My pants are tight, my thighs are squishing into my jeans, I see it in my face, on my feet (although rarely on my boobs....wtf thanks genetics) and definitely in my big ol butt.

I hate telling people I'm on a weight loss journey when its such a short one, it feels embarassing when others weight battles are much tougher than mine.

But it still counts and its still hard and I want all the short girls out there to know I'm with you! That amount of weight is a lot, and can make you feel terrible and gross and self conscious.

Currently 128 lbs, on my way back down to 115lbs.

Godspeed all you tiny meatballs out there.

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82 Pounds - 365 Days of MyFitnessPal (35F - 5'8 ; SW: 350 CW: 268)

It's almost my actual birthday. That was enough last year to finally do something about how unhappy I was. Right now, I'm crying at my kitchen table. Plenty of reasons, but mostly because I'm glad last year me was brave enough to try to change even though it felt impossible. 82 pounds is unreal but turns out it isn't impossible.

I've only ever been obese. I mean, I still am, but less so. I'm working the number down and I'm made peace with it being slow. I hate slow, but I trust it. Slow teaches you things. She gifts you things. Slow means I have a better chance of maintaining.

You can change. It just takes time.

Thoughts / Things I hope help you somehow

• CICO is how I lose weight. I'm more active (walks now, but when I lose more I want to get a bicycle and maybe even run! I still feel too heavy for both.) but counting calories is the reason I lost 82 pounds.
• MyFitnessPal free app is where it's at. It was hard for a few weeks, but now it's habit. I need to track what I eat. I wish I could be instinctual about it, but I can't. That's OK!
• I fit better. Everywhere. In my bathtub, at tables, next to people. All my life I've wanted to fit in the world and every month I feel like I do more. Everyone gets to take up space. Your value has nothing to do with size! But just, I like fitting in things designed for average weight people.
• Walking up the stairs, sitting on the floors, getting out of bed are all easier. It's still hard not to envy people at healthy weights, but this only works when my focus is me not other people.
• Sometimes when I carry in ALL the grocery bags and they feel SO heavy, I step on the scale. It's the best way I've found to remind myself of what I used to carry.
• Looking into your grocery cart and feeling good about everything in it is pure joy and a mood booster! When you're strong at the store, it's easier when you get home.
• Make some sort of display of your weight loss. A friend of mine suggested a paperclip chain -- one for each pound lost. I hung it around my mirror--which I let myself look into now.
• Keep a few old clothes to try on. Besides my face, I have trouble seeing my weight loss. Nothing proves me to more that I've gotten smaller than old clothes. Sometime that used to be tight is now loose? A delightful surprise! Added fun is when your new clothes get too small.
• Funniest NSV? My new jean pockets are kinda too small for my phone. I know that's a problem women have with pants, but my old jeans were large enough that they pockets were giant. Now I can complain about the junk women pockets, too! Buy some clothing that fits your current body perfectly. I suggest underwear because I got new underwear (80 pounds and my old underwear still stays up, go figure!) two months ago and every day I'm happy when I put it on.
• Take measurements. I couldn't convince myself to do that until July. I've lost 8 inches off my waist since then, but I wish I knew my starting points.
• I have excess skin. I will have more. I can't change that so my answer to my arms and tummy and thighs is: so what? I didn't like how my body looked before. I'd rather feel better and be healthier with loose skin.
• No one, besides the handful of people I told, noticed and said something about my weight loss for 6 months. Then it was like floodgates and EVERYONE noticed. Took awhile to be comfortable with the comments, and even now I sometimes fake the "thank you."
• You can say thank you and then move on. No need to tell them more, unless you want to. People push and sometimes I'm good about changing the subject and sometimes I tell them more than I wanted to. But serious, "thank you" or "I know" is all you have to say.
• I started going to therapy. We talk about my anxiety way more than my weight or food. I didn't know I had anxiety but I knew I wanted to talk to someone. If you're considering therapy, I recommend it. It's expensive, I know! My health insurance is terrible with high deductibles, but I've worked it into my budget and it helps me. It's hard, but I'm better with it.
• I like little challenges along the way. For one, I ate a vegetable with supper every day for a month / tried 8 new vegetable recipes. I did 30 days of 10,000 steps which turned into 100 days. Only water as a drink for a month. These things lead towards different habits, are fun, and keep me trying new health things. I don't always continue doing that, but I notice I eat vegetables even more now and walk more and mostly only drink water and coffee these days.
• I notice I'm different all the time in little ways. What I pick at restaurants. What I say about myself. What I do. It's a hundred ways I'm different but every one of them feels like the real me. I'm glad she isn't hiding as much.
• Most people have been supportive. I'm lucky. But fuck anyone who isn't. You're worth this. I'm worth this.

Someday I hope to be brave enough to share progress photos.If you have any questions, I'll do my best to answer them!

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My Major Weight Loss Experience [SW: 425 CW: 220 GW: 190] [Male 6'5"]

Yeah so I am on a throwaway because I don't really like talking about my weight or weight loss. This is definitely uncomfortable for me. Brief back story, I had/have been fat my whole life. Before I even have memories I was morbidly obese, BMI obesity probably starting around age 8 or 9. My family is overweight and I just never really learned or understood any healthy eating habits, a pretty terrible excuse for leading a life of terrible health habits if you ask me. I am sure a lot of you know this but over time you just become conditioned to it. I always thought I was destined to be big forever and didn't really think about it much or try to do anything about it for a long time. I always hated it about myself, still do. After I graduated college I was the biggest I had ever been and felt worse than ever so I decided I wanted to try to get healthy. So here I am a couple years later down over 200 pounds as of just before the new year. No signs of stopping. I completely changed my relationship with food. Physically, I feel the best I ever have in my life. Mentally, it is definitely very freeing to unburden yourself from a deeply rooted food addiction. Feel free to ask questions about the actual weight loss process and I will try to reply. I definitely want to try and help anyone else with their own weight loss journey, as I understand that is what this sub is traditionally for. But it was pretty easy for me once I put my mind to it, to be completely honest. It's really just CICO and exercise. Which leads me to my point, I've never felt worse about myself than I do now. After realizing how easy it is to be healthy I am finding it hard to forgive myself for the way I lived my entire life. I have succeeded in most other areas of my life so far/am happy with my life, but I can't get over this big failure of my life. Maybe I am being too hard on myself, but I can't shake this feeling of overall failure even despite getting my health on track now. The thoughts of all the ways being obese my whole life has held me back to this point is not an easy pill to swallow. I destroyed my body before I even realized that I was in control. I really feel like I never gave myself a chance to be all I could be... I am now being showered with a lot of "you look great" type comments from people, which is honestly a really hard thing to hear when you don't believe it yourself. I feel like my self esteem has only gotten worse with weight loss, as dumb as that sounds. The more weight I lose the more critical of myself I become. It's not something I can really talk about with anyone because all the close friends/family around me think I should be feeling the best I ever have (my friends and family are great and very supportive so they bring up the whole "you look great" type comments very frequently). Maybe this isn't the right sub for this, but in a way it feels good to type it out somewhere. Anyone else experience something similar after major weight loss?

PS. I don't mean to discourage anyone from their weight loss goals, trust me I feel infinitely better now so don't stop until you reach your goals. I definitely won't!

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What are your biggest small motivations for continuing your weight loss?

By that I mean the small things you’ll be able to do/feel more confident doing once you’ve hit your goal?

For me, it’s the following?

1.) I have a tattoo on my side that I got when I was quite a bit thinner. I’m so motivated to be able to show that off again, because I honestly forget it’s there 95% of the time.

2.) Jumpsuits and rompers!! These came back into style right after I gained some weight. I’m also quite short so they just make me look frumpy. I’d love to be able to rock one with confidence.

3.) Stairs- I got quite out of shape in the last year and a half. I used to hike all the time and now I can’t even make it up 3 flights of stairs without being a little winded. It’s embarrassing and I can’t wait to be able to do it with ease again.

I know the first two are things I could do now, but I just hate the way I look when doing them. I just can’t wait for that confidence boost.

What are yours?

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Loose skin and confidence after weight loss

So i started my weight loss about 1.5 years ago at 142 kg (313 lbs), smoking a pack per day. I'm male, 30, 190 cm (6'2), 83 kg (183 lbs) and quit smoking about one year ago.

I do a lot of sport now, about 12 hours per week. Cycling about 300 km (186 mi) and running about 50 km (31 mi) per week. Got my running time for 10 km (6.2 mi) down to 45 min at a pace of 4:30/km (7 min/mi).

I signed up for my first olympic distance triathlon in july this year. So i needed to start swimming again after not doing so for more than 10 years because i was embarrassed of my weight.

So after losing 59 kg (130 lbs) i have some loose skin, mainly on my belly.

Three weeks ago i started swimming three times per week in a public pool. I noticed i get a lot of weird looks from people. Some really staring at my belly.

But here comes the catch: I really don't care!!

Two years ago i would have left immediately if i had noticed this. Now all i think is "yeah, look at me and see what i have accomblished". I know what i have done and what i'm capable of, so this gave me a big boost in confidence.

Anyway, i just wanted to share this because i feel awesome 😁

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Lost 40lbs last year, gained almost all of it back, and now I’m starting over.

In January of last year, my PCP prescribed me Phentermine pills to help with appetite suppression and weight loss. Almost immediately after I started taking them, I began to feel extremely hyper/shaky/jittery, but they were working so I kept taking them. I took them for 3 months and lost almost 30lbs from just not wanting to eat and having increased energy for activities. By April, I had stopped taking the pills, but I was still eating less and making better food choices with increased activity levels, so I continued to lose. Throughout April, I felt almost high, with an elevated mood and increased energy. I decided to get a second job, so I was working about 55 hours a week. At the beginning of May, I had a three day stretch where I hardly slept or ate anything, and then I went into psychosis, resulting in a 5-day hospitalization. I was immediately diagnosed with Bipolar Type 1 and started on medication. It turns out that Phentermine can cause Mania in people with Bipolar Disorder, and I had had my first ever manic episode, followed by psychosis. After getting out of the hospital, my life felt like it was falling apart. I had missed two weeks of work, lost my second job, and started losing friends as well. I felt completely disconnected and uncomfortable. My depression spiraled out of control, and even though I was medicated and seeing a therapist, my mental health was in the worst shape of my life. My old habits of eating out, overeating, and living an overall sedentary lifestyle came back with a vengeance. I stopped caring about myself. I had to give up alcohol due to my meds, so I overcompensated with sugary drinks and food. Within 4 months, I had gained back almost all the weight that I had lost. The holidays brought with them a sense of joy and togetherness that I hadn’t felt in a long time, and I am now at a place where I feel hopeful again. I want to get my life turned around and get my health under control. I really appreciate this community and I want to thank anyone who has read this far. It feels good to write all this out and know that I am likely not alone in mental health playing a huge role in my weight fluctuations. I’m ready to make a change.

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