I don’t know what to do but it bothers me that I have loose skin on my arms, legs and stomach. Standing up I look good, but then when I lay/sit down I look fat still. My thighs and calves have always been larger parts of my body, it’s mainly just muscle when I touch them, but they jiggle from the fat loss surrounding the muscle and I don’t like that, my muscle on my calves look big, kinda loose and it looks odd because I have small ankles. My breast are much smaller now, but they’re long and you have see folds from the loose skin.
I started this journey back in November October, I still want to loose about 40 more pounds overall before starting to maintain. But I don’t know, there’s apart of me that feels regretful for gaining all that weight when I know, I was young and didn’t really get much of a say in my diet, plus experiencing traumatic experiences in my childhood and teenage years, your body will hold onto fat to feel a sense of safety.
Now that I’m older, I can eat clean, I mainly do walking as my work out of choice, that’s how I lost the weight. I’ve been practicing yoga everyday recently because I want to become an instructor. I just feel dysmorphic in a way that my body is a reminder of my past self, I’m going to have to carry all of that with me physically as a reminder of all the things I’ve been through. I’m in my mid twenties, I want to feel young again after having to be the adult my whole life, I’m slowly getting that spark back in time. I would like to look lean and tone. I want to have a strong back. I want to be confident in a bikini and not conscious about my body. I feel that my confidence is growing as I lose the weight, but as I get closer to my goal weight, I feel like I’m at that stage of weight loss where you think that you look fatter than you actually are, until you look in the mirror one day and say “huh I look different” you know?
I’ve been overweight my whole life and this is the result of that, my weight currently is probably the lowest I’ve ever been since maybe 15/16. I don’t want to get surgery, because I don’t want the scarring. Non-invasive methods won’t work as well as going under the knife, and might go in the opposite direction of what you’re looking for. I heard that using copper peptides, skin tightening creams with retinoids can help, plus red light therapy, but that can only do so much when you’ve been overweight your whole life. I also think as I go closer to my goal it intensifies my relationship with beauty which I’ve always struggled with.
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