This can be my last post on this sub. I am confused right now. To sum up, I need to give up weight loss journey to recover from ED. I have non-purging bulimia. I am already obese. Many people gain weight while following diet plan recommended by ED specialists. Three meals and three snacks. I am afraid of gaining more pounds while being on recovery journey.
I found that I have had some kind of eating disorder for more than ten years. I keep binging two to three days a row, and then I eat like a normal person after that. My portion is getting bigger, and my food choices are far way from healthy food.
I don't know if I can call myself as bulimic. I don't purge, and I don't fast after binging. That's why I kept gaining weight.
I just think that I need to recover from my eating disorder so that I don't become morbidly obese. My current weight is 45 pounds heavier than my goal weight. I don't mind if I wouldn't reach my goal weight. I just want to be free from this toxic cycle.
I met a doctor at the eating disorder clinic, and she diagnosed me as a non- purging bulimic. She told me that I must not think about weight loss to recover from eating disorder. My next appointment is end of October.
My BMI is 32, and I am experiencing health issue because of my weight. I feel uncomfortable when I walk. I sometimes feel heat around my right foot at that night. I need to talk to my doctor on Monday.
Many people gain weight while recovering from eating disorder because most clinics have recommended eating plan for patients. It is usually three meals and three snacks. Many ED specialists may not recommend portion control, so I might gain weight in the future.
I am terrified. I am afraid of gaining more pounds. It is not because of my looks, but it is because of my health.
Should I give up weight loss journey and accept the possibility of gaining weight?
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