I weigh over 500lbs. I an terrified that I will die soon. I'm 28 years old. I've been fat my whole life. I have been trying to lose weight my whole life but for some reason this year I got tired of trying. For awhile I was so depressed I would eat as much as I could during the day and sleep and pray I didn't wake up the next day. I was committed to a mental hospital after a suicide attempt and am doing better now. Now I want to live. I want to lose the weight. I just don't think I can do it so I've essentially given up before even starting. I did fill out information for a bariatric clinic to look into weight loss surgery but this scares me because I know it's not easy. I'm afraid to fail. Plus I have a binge eating disorder and that makes everything 10x harder. I freak out and eat even when I'm not hungry. I go out and hit 3 fast food restaurants in a row on a bad day.
I want help. I want to do better. What is the right first step? I'm currently taking Alli and attempting to count calories though I have missed a few days. I feel like I have already failed.
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