(16F) for starters, i am 5’11 and 243~Ibs.
I stayed on my plan for a few days. max. (calories per day is 1,875). i stopped tracking, i stopped making volume food choices. i went back to snacking all day long, far past my calorie limit. this happens every single time i try any type of weight loss plan. it’s miserable. i can’t stay on track if my life depended on it.
it’s like i have no control over any urges nor self discipline, i’m not even snacking because i’m hungry, i’m doing it because of stress, or when i’m upset, or boredom, or just to simply be crunching on something. i’ll tell myself “this is so easy, just fight your urges and say no!”. nah. even if i say that in the heat of the moment i still go for the food anyways.
I will be going to my first ED specialist sometime next week. (for overeating) honestly? i’m just hurt. I just want peace; to be able to walk into class without adjusting my hiding clothes, to be able to think that not everyone is judging me, to wear things i want to wear, to feel worth something. i have been obese for my entire life, and i’m tired of it.
something needs to change but i can’t stay on track or motivated no matter what i do. i feel like a puppet.
any advice is appreciated.
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