I've been on the struggle bus for a couple of weeks now and figured it was time to return to Reddit and rant about my situation and potentially look for some advice.
Just a quick background on myself throughout this weight loss journey; I am a 22-year-old male who has been focusing on losing weight since the end of June of last year. My starting weight was 334 and my lowest so far has been 177. To manage this, all I have done is CICO (consuming 1500 calories per day) and a little bit of exercise here and there. When I mean here and there, I do mean it's sporadic. I went from walking a couple of miles to a walk/jog, back to walking for a long distance, biking, and now I'm back to doing 5 miles with a walk/jog interval. I have had bad days but, I considered those acceptable as a reward since we are all going out of our pace. I've realized it's not a race, it's a marathon.
As I said I've been yo-yo-ing these past two weeks due to a couple of bad days with a grad party and some mental issues dealing with depression/anxiety. In the past 2 weeks, my weight has gone from 183 to now 179 today which I fully believe is mostly water weight since I was 183 just a couple of days ago. Seeing the weight trend and adding the mental issues I've been dealing with really derailed me. I was able to get back on track this week and figured let's start off with a fresh start this week.
The real first thing I wanted to talk about was my goal weight. Every time I mention to my family that I still want to lose weight, I get odd looks and hear that I really shouldn't be losing any more weight. I find this really frustrating as my BMI is classified as overweight (even though I know BMI is not the best to go off of) which often makes me second guess myself or make me feel terrible. Is 160 lbs. for a guy my height reasonable or is my family just being "dumb" for a lack of better vocabulary. I don't want to be an athlete or have a lot of muscle. I just want to be healthy and improve my body image to a point where I can see myself in a mirror and be like, "I'm proud of improving this body".
Another thing I wanted to bring which is brought up a lot and get's a lot of conflicting answers: exercise. Is walking good enough exercise for losing weight? I really do not enjoy overexerting myself with running trying. I have managed to be able to jog a little over half a mile but, it really puts a toll on me. I hate weightlifting and the feeling of being sore after each workout. I have tried so many times but, it is not really sustainable at the moment. I honestly think this is due to my calorie count being pretty low which probably inhibits the ability of my body to be able to heal. What would you guys recommend for exercise? As of now, I have been focusing on doing a walk/jog interval the past week or so that consists of 5 miles along with some extra steps at work whenever I'm moving around. (Sometimes could a hundred sometimes a couple thousand). I have been doing this routine 4 days out of the week, Friday to Monday.
Calorie Count: Is 1500 enough for my weight? I have recently noticed that I am getting pretty tired at the end of the week and my performance in exercise has gone down a bit. I really don't want to up my calorie count but, I want some advice if you guys think this is enough.
The last thing I wanted to touch upon in this post was my self-image. I'll be honest, I still hate the way I look. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with the weight I've lost but, it REALLY sucks after doing this forever a year, working extremely hard at this, that I am still not satisfied with how I look. Loose skin has arrived (or so I believe). I still have a tummy that hangs (might be due to loose skin, still not sure), my legs are still really T H I C C (thighs and calves) and I still have a bit of a double chin when I'm not focusing on it. This has really been the thing taking a toll on me. My body image is probably the main reason for my anxiety/depression. I think I need some serious help and don't know what to do. I do not have the money to really seek a therapist and don't really enjoy them. I've tried to see a couple but they did not feel genuine. I have tried talking to some friends and family but this doesn't really help. It's not their fault since they are not therapists themselves. I have gotten to a point where I wanted to give up on everything but, I end up finding the reason to get back on track. I really need some help in this department if anyone can lend a hand. My mental health is starting to deteriorate and it's getting to the point where I'm not enjoying life. I have lost a lot of interest in my previous hobbies and I'm starting to feel like a zombie.
I know this post is a lot but, it's something I've been holding and needed to get off my chest. I appreciate every single one of you that gives this post even just a little read and even more if you could offer some advice.
I know a lot of you love to see some progress pics so, I will update them here. I put a progress pic a while back but, a lot has changed since that post I made that consisted of progress pics. Seeing where I started and where I'm at now helps just a little bit and keeps me on track.
Somewhat near my highest weight: https://i.imgur.com/T8pKqQ1.jpg
Very recent pic of near my lowest weight: https://i.imgur.com/bFYQLMk.jpg
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