Here's my PSA. Using this subreddit I lost about 30 pounds in 2018/2019. I still had 10-15 more pounds I wanted to lose but I was so happy with how my clothes were fitting, how I felt, and even just how it felt to lay in bed being skinnier. I felt accomplished, proud of myself. I wasn't done, and it wasn't easy, but I felt so good when I would look at a picture of myself and not think "yech look at that muffin top". I wore a bikini (a damn BIKINI!) on my last hot vacation. I wasn't exactly where I wanted to be but I said F it - I'm doing it. And I actually looked half decent.
I was also a little scared ... when you've been on this community long enough you see the posts of people who were successful and then slid back to their original weight or even surpassed it. People who were hopeful to try again - and if they slipped, maybe I would? I was determined not to be one of the slippers. I mean, everyone's human and everyone slips up, but no way would I slip all the way back to where I started. I'd worked to hard.
PSA part. You've worked so hard. Do not fall back into the ways that got you where you didn't want to be. I have gained back 20-25 pounds. I am not right back to where I was, but I'm not far off. My clothes don't fit right anymore. When I look at myself from the back I have big love handles again. I get tired easily again. My thighs are big again. My mental state when I think about my weight is not good. I am upset with myself. No. I'm MAD AS HELL at myself. I could see myself slipping but I didn't help myself. I actually still haven't. I've restarted a couple of times and fallen down. I am restarting again now. I don't have confidence that I can do this again. I know I did it once. I know it can be done, but it's so damn disheartening. And I can't attribute anything to it? No traumas. No changes really from before. No big job changes. Yes, COVID, which didn't help in a lot of ways but that's an excuse, not a reason. And I know it's less about exercise and everything to do with the way I've been eating and drinking. Because I do love eating and drinking. Sigh. But I've gotta get back. I've got to do this again. I did it once, I can do it again.
I read a book recently that had nothing to do with weight loss (it was Chris Hadfield's "The Astronauts Guide to Life on Earth" - great read) where he talks about getting ready to go to space and their health and fitness. Anyway - he says in it "You get skinny in the kitchen and strong in the gym". No truer words, because I was still going to the gym in the months before lockdown and my weight was not getting better. And when I did lose the weight, I really was only walking 5K a day pretty leisurely.
Anyhow. That's all. Just had to type it out. I'm so glad for this community. Thanks for letting me whine. Also I look shitty in a bikini again, but that's gonna change. (I realize this is only my self perception and anyone can wear anything they want - I'm just using it as a barometer)
TL;DR: If you've lost or are losing - do your level best not to slip back into your old ways!!!
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