I'm at a point in my weight loss journey where I have to pay very careful attention to my calories in order to lose fat without really depriving myself. I have to stick to my calorie goal but I can afford one day a week going over as long as I'm consistent with my workouts and get a good amount of walking in.
I do also deal with an eating disorder, so I have a terrible amount of food-related anxiety. A big reason for sticking to my calorie goals is to help mitigate these feelings. The one over-budget day a week is a mental break.
But no one else sees my struggle or really cares. And y'know, they shouldn't have to, but I'm getting to the end of my tether with having to go out and eat so much. I don't want to do it, but if I don't go then I'm letting people down or missing opportunities to see people.
But every single outing comes with anxiety and guilt and self-flagellation. I've just had over a month solid of birthday celebrations at least once per week and I NEED downtime. Now I'm getting invited to my mother-in-law's every week and my partner still expects weekend takeout and I can't handle it. That's 2 days where I'll definitely be over my goal, and I have no buffer room for any other unplanned bad days.
I guess I'm venting. I've got no doubt other people have been in a similar situation! I'm not sure if I can face lowering my daily calorie goal even further to compensate so I don't know what to do. I finally got control over my own habits and now I'm getting all of these setbacks I can't control :(
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