CW: some mentions of biology and mental illness
I have lost almost 10lbs (170 to 162lbs [5'6"]) and I'm having my first period in a while; my tracker app says my last one was in October. This is semi normal for me since I used to be on The Pill™, but I stopped around February when I realized I was gay. Also, my body stops menstruating when I'm stressed and, ya know, pandemic is stressful (this also happens when school starts up again, and hoo boy there's been a lot of school stress too.)
Anyway, the bloat and my crazy hormonal appetite is really making me anxious about my progress. I'm trying to be reasonable and still eat, mostly things like fruit and light Greek yogurt (substitute for ice cream) and many many rice cakes with peanut butter. But yesterday my roommate let me eat a million of their peanut butter filled pretzel bites, and they're way too willing to share, and their diet is almost entirely junk food and soda... so to say their generosity is tempting is an understatement, but I also hate feeling like I'm sabotaging myself.
I haven't been counting my calories these past couple days, trying to go a more intuitive route. I will know and feel I'm satiated but also... I'm still hungry, there's a pang in the pit of my stomach compelling me to keep eating. I am also concerned I'm putting too much pressure on myself to enact all my ideal "lifestyle changes" at once, and I don't know how much leeway to give myself. I've struggled with disordered eating before and I've been doing my best to approach weight loss in a healthy and productive way (i.e. never letting myself purposefully starve, regularly checking in with my body, getting enough rest days, etc etc) but I also don't want to go the other way and overeat because I'm afraid I'm having "skinny thoughts".
Should I just accept my body is doing a body thing and keep eating how I want but with healthy foods? Should I try to still track calories? What are your replacements for junk food?
Thanks everyone!
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