I am an avid pot smoker. I love it, I feel like the weight of the world slips off my shoulders when i smoke or consume cannabis. Pot was there for me when I got my heart broken, it was there for me to help me cope with the stresses of work. It was even there for me the first time I truly stuck to a weigh t loss routine 2 years ago. I used it as a tool for motivation the first time I went through this journey of losing weight; I would get off work, smoke a joint and then go to the gym that was next door. I worked in a popular cafe that served delicious desserts and even more delicious savory foods (I dream about the smoked salmon bahn mi we served). After working out for at least an hour and a half i would walk home, a distance of around 3 miles, and yes i would smoke during the walk and it was great. I went from weighing 195 lbs to 150 lbs in the span of a year. So what happened? I got into a relationship and of course i cant put the blame of my weight gain on the relationship, but i got really comfortable not working out as much as i had been. I stopped working at the cafe and therefore i was no longer within walking distance of the gym. I bought a car and therefore stopped walking home from work (I moved somewhat far so the distance to work was now 20 miles). I continued to smoke pot. I smoked with my boyfriend at the time all day, everyday (when i wasn't working) and I think you all know where i'm going with this.... we started to eat everything and instead of working out we'd spend the weekends at his apartment eating, smoking and watching trash tv. Its safe to assume i gained about half of the weight that I had lost. Anyways, we broke up and i used ganja to help me cope with the loss. I lost some weight but it was mostly due to the complete loss of appetite following the breakup. So why do I need to hold myself accountable? what is the point of this long winded story i'm trying to tell? I have come to the conclusion that I can no longer use marijuana as a tool in my weight loss journey. I think that the reason why i was successful years ago while smoking was that logistically it was possible for me to use pot as tool being close to the gym and within walking distance of my home. Quarantine has really shed light on my bad habits and with all gyms shut down in LA county I managed to gain all of the weight back. I am not demoralized, i know i am just human but whereas before i used pot before in a way that would get me mentally prepared to do some physical activity, all i want to do now is eat. I am no longer in a position where I can trust myself to use it responsibly to achieve my goals. So i have to hold myself accountable and not smoke or consume cannabis because its not conducive to me at this point if I want to make the healthy changes I need. I don't hate pot, I just haven't been responsible and honest with myself about how my habits are affected by cannabis. Pot is great, pot didn't make me fat (I take full responsibility). I want to be the type of person that can look at myself objectively and call myself out on my bullshit and i'm starting that right here right now. I am choosing to keep myself as accountable as I can.
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