Hey, I found this reddit so I could start a thread to have a community for people who have the same stats as me?
Here is my story, I will try keep it short.(ha no)
I weighed a lot most of my life from before I was even a teen. I just always liked food. Being chubby actually did not bother me most of my life because I am oblivious clearly. It was only around 15 years old that I realised everyone was obsessing over it. I got called a name on the street. I years later watched the biggest loser and panicked that I could be this big someday. It all kind of snowballed.... because I was getting bigger.
Hi. I am a five foot 2 hobbit, I weigh 170lbs right now. I started out at 180lbs when I first realised I was getting bigger and bigger(seeing photos of myself also didn't help). I cut down on fast food, omitted some processed carbs(bye bye pasta for some reason) and cut down on the others or subbed them for quinoa or veg noodles. I stopped all soda. I walked a lot more then, managed to get down to 160lbs, fast forward a few yrs and I am starting college, I decided to get a personal trainer, I worked out twice a week and went MEGA STRICT mode on my diet. God it was awful, I went into this mindset where I counted everything, weighed everything, had no treats to maybe 1 small thing a week. I lost weight alright. I went to a whopping 140lbs with 6 months training and 4 months of no training but I started running and staying healthy and active on my own(ha that didnt last...) anyway I was thin(ish, my goal was 120lbs) for a few months then I finished college and started a sit down job and it made me gain 15lbs.
So back to 155lbs, thinking about starting a new life. I quit my job and move in with my dad and step mom... I was a lot more active. Danced, biked, walked, ate less but my weight kinda didnt budge. Turns out I was MEGA stressed. I hated my step moms rules on me even though I was in my 20s she treated me like a child. I couldnt find a job and then in the summer I was hit with extreme chronic pain. Like out of NOWHERE seemingly (turns out it was the stress causing this issue im about to tell you about) which caused my UNKNOWN endometriosis to FLARE up like a bad boi and give me a massive 8cm cyst on my ovary. I been in and out of hospitals since trying to get an operation with more issues and waiting times being added. With all the chronic pain and stress and hating where I lived and yada yada I went into FULL depression mode. I moved back home with my mom, I ate. I stayed in my bed. I did nothing day after day. I gained.. im back to 170lbs and I just felt so bad about it all (Still no job...). I am slowly trying to get back to being motivated. I am not as depressed now. I kinda settled down, chronic pain has went away and now I only get pain where my cyst is.... but somehow I still lack the motivation.(weather here has been terrible).
Speaking of that. Now I cant exercise very highly or I get serious pain in my side and a possibility the cyst could rupture causing major pain and issues(its full of old blood so ew no) so I am sedentary. I tried shadow boxing and yoga but i get sOoOo BORED doing this over and over on my own. I need a community to help me with my food issues. I am so bored and eating out of boredom bc I dont get out. I am A HUGE unsocial nerd btw. I feel like a lot is against me.
SW: 180lbs
CW: 170lbs
GW: 120lbs
Female/26/Irish/5 foot 2 inches(159cm)
Please help me. I feel like ive tried every kind of lifestyle but always end up failing. CICO, IF, FAST800, intuitive eating... etc etc.
I also am not a fan of exercise to begin with, I did like weight lifting and I do enjoy swimming but our gyms are closed almost all year due to pandemic plus I cant drive. Can't work out too heavy in my room since its made of CARDBOARD(everything shakes) plus cyst/medical issues.
My food for my height and stuff seems to be around 1250 calories and my god its SO difficult to stay this low and enjoy my food/stay full..
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