After turning 22 on May 1st of this year, I decided that I wanted to live the life I’ve always dreamed of. That’s when I decided to start my journey “officially”. I’ve been on and off calorie restrictions, lifestyle changes, etc. my whole life.
I was diagnosed with pcos at age 11 and unfortunately pcos just makes putting on weight easy and losing it hard. Not to mention all the medications and hormones I had to be on at the age of 11, as a child.
I was a normal weight my whole life. Then after I was diagnosed I was put on birth control and tons of hormones to try and “fix” my symptoms all they did was mask my symptoms and make my weight spiral. Hormones & birth control already hugely negatively affect female bodies, but to be put on all those hormones as a child in the middle of puberty! It really screwed up my body, as well as the horrible mental side affects.
Pcos unfortunately comes with side affects of depression and anxiety, I already had both of these prior to being diagnosed. Then add in hormones and birth control that also increase depression and anxiety. Plus being a middle school girl with a beard, acne, oily skin, and being over weight, just made all of these things worse. My social anxiety doubled, and so did my depression. All these issues lead to a world wind of mental health and self esteem issues.
My social anxiety became crippling and has been that way since. Pcos doesn’t just affect my body in negative ways, it affects every single aspect of my life. I thought I could only dream of having a good life, where I had friends and got to do normal things a 22 year old does.
But then I decided to try and tackle some of my issues. So I got laser hair removal, found an endocrinologist who takes me seriously, and now my life has improved so much.
I’ve been put on a medication to improve my hair growth (I also have androgenic alopecia, as if all the other horrible symptoms weren’t enough), and my skin has cleared immensely. So now all that’s left to do is to manage my symptoms without hormones and to lose weight. Which I what i decided to finally tackle on May 5th 2020.
My starting weight was 200lbs my current weight is 173lbs I’m 5’3. I can’t even see a difference and I know I didn’t lose that much weight yet, but my life has improved so much. I think my life has improved because my social anxiety and depression is so much better now. Which I thought was never a possibility.
I’m actually okay with going out into public now, and I’m looking forward to my future. I finally feel like I can accomplish all the things I want to now.
Of course I still have bad days, unfortunately that’s something I will have to live with forever. But now the good days outweigh the bad, whereas before I couldn’t even remember having a good day.
Honestly I have such a long road ahead of me and a lifelong fight with this disease, but now I know there’s hope. That’s what’s motivating me to keep going.
I’m not sure how many people are going to take the time to read this, or even care. But I just want all you to know, weight loss is about more then just aesthetics. It’s about your quality of life and health, please don’t give up. I know you can do it!
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