This whole losing weight thing ain't easy, lol. I've always been fat. In may 2011 something broke in me and I decided it was time to take control of my weight. Between may and august I went from ~295 to 220 by way of cico and biking about 20 miles almost daily. It was hard but I felt very rewarded by my efforts.
I was feeling myself a bit too much though and as such let myself relax and enjoy the fruits (more like beers and burritos) of my labor. In no time I was back to 250 where I plateaued for a bit. At this point I started having issues with bone spurs in my achilles which really derailed me physically and mentally.
Funny thing about me, when I'm injured I get depressed about it very easily, and so I began my rapid ascent back to the starting point of 295 and fully blew by that and settled around 330. And there I sat for a few years. Miserable and self loathing. At least I could still eat and drink and enjoy those things. That is until I couldn't.
I began to have terrible acid reflux whenever I would indulge. I'd wake up in the middle of the night choking on my own bile. I had other signs that things were going badly, my neck and cheeks began to blacken. If my back was feeling tight I'd have a hard time reaching back to wipe after pooping. That one was what broke me and started me back down the path of weight loss.
Here I sit today, still fat but less fat, weighing in at 272 this morning. My acid reflux and skin blackening has resolved itself as has the wiping issue lol. I've been at it since mid feb after a few years of wondering if I would ever again have what it would take to dig deep and put forth the effort needed to do this thing.
I know there's a lot of you who have relapsed and fallen back into habits that you thought were behind you for good, and maybe you're lurking around here hoping to get a spark of motivation or something to nudge you back onto the right path again. Look into your life and ask yourself if you've normalized things that really should be major red flags. When I realized how many things I'd normalized and rationalized it really steeled my resolve.
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