I (21F) went from 237 lbs to ~160 lbs in 2018-2019, and have essentially maintained since then. I’m still not small or thin by any standards at 5’8. But my daily life and my interactions with people now compared to when I was at my heaviest? It’s like comparing night and day.
I recently finished my first year of law school and attended a little celebratory dinner with my study groupmates. One of my groupmates had made joke t-shirts and had ordered a few in each of the standard sizes (S,M,L) so we could take a picture. Three years ago, I would have been so embarrassed to either have to force myself into a shirt that obviously didn’t fit, or I wouldn’t have been able to participate at all. Now, the women’s large fit loosely. During dinner, I didn’t even think about what other people thought of my eating or wonder if they were judging me. But 2018 me would have been terrified and self-conscious about eating too much compared to everyone else or looking like a fat stereotype. There are so many other small instances that I can reflect on in my daily life, but these really hit home for me when I was looking back at pictures from the event. Back in 2018, my body would have ruined the night for me or at least stressed me out to a great degree. Now, I can mentally be in the moment and focus on interacting with my friends.
I’m sure there is something to be said for being thin and beautiful, and I am working on losing more weight this summer while I’m in not in school and have the mental energy to focus on weight loss. But for me, just being able to function and be treated as a “normal,” “standard” person is really great, too. And much more attainable than being considered “thin.”
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