Hi everyone I'm terrified, Hi terrified, I'm Dad (I love Dad jokes)
So, here goes...
I was a skinny kid, but in my last year of high school I began to gain weight.
I have spent the last 20 years eating when I was depressed and anxious, which has been a lot of the time. When I feel bad I basically become Pac Man, eating my way through shameful feelings.
I have literally ate my feelings, as well as eating instead of saying things I should have said to family members, people at work etc.
I eat to numb out, I eat to comfort myself, I eat when I don't believe in myself, I eat when I compare myself to others and I especially eat when I feel like I am the "ugly friend". I use food to distance myself from others and protect myself.
I want to (but am scared about) eating better because I am tired of getting in my own way with food (and also I do want to feel more confident in my body). I am 30 lbs over what the BMI guide says I should be and I get SO TIRED from eating shitty.
It's weird, because I have open-minded and lovely friends, but I can't talk about possible weight loss around them because they get really mad at me.
I'm not a dick about it. I make sure not to talk about it w people I know have eating disorders, or are in recovery from one. But I am super anxious about this change and want to talk to someone about it.
So, hi!
I'm ZombieSharkRobot and I'm trying to not eat my feelings and treat my body better
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