**oof, edit: parent so about two months ago near the end of march i started on cico- and for nearly whole month of april i kept myself at 1200 and i was able to see and feel a difference in myself!! i was so proud and it felt great. flash forward to nearing finals week and my tracking fell off the wagon on my way home with my parent since on our way we stopped in nyc and wanted to have a good time.
to cut to the chase- my parent doesn’t believe that cico alone can be a sustainable way to lose weight. their argument was that without exercise, cico would probably lead to disordered eating unless i decided to exercise too. don’t grt me wrong, i know that exercise has really healthy benefits and would honestly speed up my weight loss and make me feel awesome. but as someone who secretly has/does dealt with binge eating, i found myself mentally approaching exercise as a way to purge calories and validate my reason to eat- thus for now i havent exercised alot unless i know it’s purely for my health and happiness, not to let me eat.
i honestly dont remember how weight loss and fitness came up but i ended up telling her about my month on cico with little to no exercise and how it’s been working fine for me despite them insisting that i had to exercise but then they slap this on me:
“you still can’t even fit back in the clothes you used to be able to though.”
i know it’s only been about two months so i know in my head that of course i won’t ft into those size 2’s anymore but this hurt so much to hear from someone i love and value a lot.
but when i heard them say this to me, i felt my flame burn just a bit hotter. i used to just want to lose weight to physically look better (which is still just as valid a reason) but now i want to lose to prove that even if i don’t do HIIT or an hour of cardio a day, i can still become that size 2 again! just maybe not as toned up a size 2, haha.
yet as much as i hate being proved wrong, i also don’t want my journey to be about anyone but me- i know sometime i’d like to incorporate exercise, but i still don’t agree that it is necessary. i just dont want them going ‘AHA!’ when i step on a treadmill.
any advice??? im home for the summer which is why we may be spending some more time together, thus i can’t just hide my food weighing and occasional trips to the gym. we also used to love going out for food and still do but i know i will need to mKe different choices and i dont want them to come off as me being ‘restrictive’ even though i’m just trying to make it fit into my count for the day.
thank you!!! i appreciate any and all help!
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