Thursday, May 23, 2019

I'm Tired of Living like Trash

Some back story: I was sitting at around 200lbs in high school. I managed to lose around 60lbs, most of it from late 2017 onwards, and I was really happy with my progress. I was eating well, exercising, and learning new things about myself everyday.

Then my boyfriend and I decided to move in together. And not just down the street, mind you. We moved from South Africa to the UK. The lifestyle change was immense - convenience was a click away, and we'd never experienced that before. My boyfriend usually tries to remind me of the changes and stress we've gone through over the last six months to make me feel better about the weight I've gained. It's only 10lbs, but I know it's probaby more like 20lbs since I've stopped exercising and lost all the muscle I'd worked so hard for.

As it stands, the flat we recently moved into is always a mess, I can barely be bothered to work out, and there is so. much. food. I want to try. I thought I had made peace with my disordered eating, but recently I can't seem to do anything but binge. I've even been considering purging at times.

Today, I am tired of all that. I want the discipline to lead a better life; that's why we came here after all. I want to feel good about myself instead of anxious all the time. I want to hold myself accountable and take responsibility for my actions. And I want to help my boyfriend on his weight loss journey as well.

Any advice is more than welcome.

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