The biggest NSV happened yesterday. I think it’s worth a little back story of my journey—so maybe this will help someone.
TW-pregnancy and labor and delivery overview/mention of child in NICU.
So a little back story on my journey. 2016 I was in great shape—at the lowest weight—felt great, really didn’t eat great-but hey I looked good. I lost 30 pounds from 2015-2016 by CICO and exercising but I wasn’t really making the best food choices and picking foods that would make me feel better and run my body efficiently.
2017 comes around and that summer I lost control—had bad anxiety, was diagnosed with GAD found myself on medicine, in a job i hated, and drinking my sorrows away.
By the end of 2017- I was in a pretty bad place-emotionally, physically, mentally. I had multiple foot/ankle injuries (landing me in boots and casts) and gave in to emotional eating (and drinking) and by January 2018- I had gained 35/40 pounds AND surprise.. I was pregnant.
2 weeks after I found out I was pregnant my MRI results came back that I have torn ligaments in my ankle (and can’t walk without pain) but they won’t touch it until after the baby is born.
2018- was rough—it was a rough pregnancy. Horrible anxiety, and not how I ever imagined that year to go. I was at my heaviest and I was so nauseous, puked constantly (on and off for 6/9 months). I truly couldn’t stomach anything besides bread and chick fil a—and my weight and health spiraled out of control, i was miserable, terrible sciatic pain and ended up borderline pre eclamptic- (hindsight is 20/20 and after many years i finally am on the path to a formal lupus diagnosis/hypothyroid issues. My doctors now think that pregnancy triggered lupus during that time and a combo of my weight and my body not liking itself it made for a terrible pregnancy. ) I was induced at 36+6 and ended up in labor for 2+ days and had a c section because I had an infection and it landed my son a nicu stay.
2018 ended with labor & delivery PTSD, anxiety & PPD. Once I go back to work in 2019, I had ankle surgery not long. I was no weight bearing for 4+ weeks and it was miserable. Then i has to relearn to walk and then run. I started counting calories again because I was immobile with an infant and trying to lose my baby weight. I managed to get some off but I was struggling.
After ankle surgery, I had Chronic sinus infections ( which lead to sinus surgery), fatigue, anxiety and i was struggling. i needed some accountability and some guidance and a different mindset.
I had a friend tell me about Noom—so I decided to give it a try and see what it was all about. Noom completely changed my relationship with food, and made me really think about why I was eating what I was eating. My coach encouraged me and kept me accountable and when I wasn’t losing weight I knew why. I found ways to enjoy salads and fruit more. I picked healthier lean meat options and really aimed to make better choices 80/90% of the time. (Not to say I don’t slip up something’s but I am so much more aware). The change in my mindset about food has been incredible and has stuck with me. For once I was counting calories, making better food choices (enjoying things in moderation and not overdoing it)and exercising. I found workouts I enjoyed and things have slowly fallen together.
2020- I continued on Noom- I actually started the courses over 2x to get back to the basics-To remind myself why I’m eating what I’m eating and I feel better when I choose foods most of the time that give me energy and keep me full. 2020 brought a job lay-off, an autoimmune diagnosis, some other health issues (but an amazing team of doctors). But this year throughout the pandemic, losing a job, having a rough year, I have continued slowly on my new journey and making better choices.
Since giving birth about 2 years ago I have lost 65 pounds from my highest weight with about 20-25 to go.
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This week I went for my annual physical and I hadn’t been to this places since 2016–when I was at one of my lowest weights. They do a full blood work up - Total Cholesterol, HDL, LDL, A1C, triglycerides—all the fun stuff. I was dreading it and the results.
However—the bloodwork came back and I was floored.
2016-weighing around 155 these were my numbers. Total Cholesterol-211 HDL-76 LDL-121 A1C-5.4 Triglycerides-70
2020- weighing at 175-these were my numbers
Total Cholesterol-194 HDL-79 LDL-102 A1C-5 Triglycerides-66
So while my weight/BMI is up.. my blood work is better and my doctors are pleased. I’m making progress. I’m working on me and changing my life style. I’m making better food choices and eating less of the white carbs and fried food (especially chicken biscuits 😂)
All of this to say. THIS IS A DAMN MARATHON. NOT A SPRINT.
Comparison is a thief. I was thinking about how I should be further along on my weight loss journey, BUT I stopped myself. I’m proud of where I am now. I’m mentally, physically, emotionally in a better place. I’m working on making this a life style.
I am counting calories but I’m not restricting my calories with exercise like I once did. If I do an hour work out 1300 calories for the day isn’t going to cut it. But now I’m picking better choices go help keep me full and provide more nutrients.
I have a toddler to raise and teach about food and nutrition and I want to be a good role model. I’m working on making this it a life style and for me it will be more sustainable in the long run. These last 20-25 pounds may take longer but that’s okay.
Wellness for me is about the whole picture. Physical and mental. My therapist has been a huge part in encouraging me and challenging me. Just a PSA therapy is wonderful and even when I’m smooth sailing I still check in regularly because there’s things I need to work out.
So to those struggling or wishing you were further along, take a look at how far you have come. You can do this. The choice is yours and this is an amazing community to have.
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